meet the God I serve :)

I missed God so much! The way He used to speak to me, to reveal things and to wispher random things in my ears.. I missed His sweetness.. And truly, if He wants you back He will cause you to do the biggest, ever worst, most ugly sin in this world just for you to turn to Him again.. I like the way He uses bad things and mess to turn them in the end into your favor.. :) I had struggle alot this past few months with my faith.. I was not hearing anymore His voice.. I had the same period.. the Silent period that took place between Malachi and Matthew! Ahhh! No revelations, no impacts.. But I knew deep within that my souls was longing for Him, that Monica wanted Him bad at any cost. So true that your soul canno't lie.. As I got on my knees and trembling was speaking the name of my Lord.. My inmost being begun to cry.. To speak.. That was the moment my soul was delivered from any kind of oppression, freed from the enemy's chains..
I had a tremendous encounter with God.. That indeed marked my life! Once again He prooved Himself faithfull to His words.. No one could ever compare to Him!! 


And do you know the feeling of being unworthy?! :'( I don't know but tears are flooding my face now.. Do you know the feeling of being nothing. As in nothing. Knowing that you are the worst sinner ever lived still, you have a God, a Father, a Friend like Jesus, like God, like the Holy Spirit.. That no matter what you do still they are there to confort you, to accept you, to understand you.. I never knonw Someone like the Triune God-Head! They are actually all that I have.. Specially this point of time.. When no one is litteraly around.. I found Them there.. That though many time I rejected them, still They are always the first to run just to rescue you.. And this is just the beginning..
If I ask you if you know the awkward feeling of being appointed to do something.. Something of which you are really unworthy.. cos you know by yourself that you are a failure.. A bunch of dust.. But still, because you prayed a simple prayer that I dont actually undrstood that moment.. He picks you up from the darkness, put you into light and make you able to do things for His glory.. 
I can't explain this kind of Love.. A Love that loves beyond anything.. A Love stronger than any sin.. A love that covers mutlitudes of wrong doing..


A LOVE THAT ONLY THE TRIUNE GOD-HEAD CAN GIVE.. :)


I may be the worst sinner ever lived in this world.. But I stand still by grace cos I have a HighPriest that is able to symphatize with my many infinite weaknesses..


To God be the Glory. Always.