desirelessness

"Better is one day in Your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked." - Psalm 84:10


I used to recite this Bible verse in my exhortations before without knowing that I myself didn't understand at all its meaning. God opened my ears and heart this Youth Summit when Ptr. Bobot preached about "Intimacy with God" at the Leaders' Session. Until then I was used to know that verse by mind, not by heart. 
As I was immersed in God's presence with almost 5.000 general of the Lord, He right there spoke to me, reminding how humble was David's desire.
He would rather be a doorkeeper in the House of God than to dwell in the tents of the wicked.
He would prefer stay one second, one minute, one day of his life in God's presence than to spend life time enjoying sinning.
He would rather stay not even in, but just at the entrance of the temple than to live a life filled with earthly pleasures.
He would rather watch the Lord from the outside of the temple (take not, he is not even involved) than to join 100% wordly thing.
This is how David's desire was humble and desireless..


I am praying for such desire.. That though the world is offering me the best, something that I've ever longed for; I would resist and choose to be the doorkeeper of His house.. Choose Him always.
This verse is deeper than I've ever imagined! It talks about being desireless. 


"Desirelessness is letting go of everything you think you want, except the purpose of choosing to serve God only."