I'm thinking to deactivate my FB account.. It's stealing me much time.

Good Morning, Monica

Proverbs 27:6 (Amplified Bible) "Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but the kisses of an enemy are lavish and deceitful."

Have been rebuked today like no one dared to do until now.. My pride made me think that I was doing good, that I was able to make it go well.. Not until I realise that I needed help.. I thought he would be encouraging me.. But I had enough encouragement.. Matter of fact my heart became numb at inspiring words.. I needed to be rebuked! I needed to be corected and someone who has enough coourage to make me realise what I was doing..

I thank God for this person.. He is a blessing, that sometimes I am taking for granted because he is ever here.. Credits to the Almighty that used his mouth for me to wake up..

Therefore I say to myself.. Good Morning, Monica :)

GOD is GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

loving patience

I'm going through kinda bad times as for now.. Inspite of these all, my God stand still faithull, my family is ever near to me and my Bestfriend is doing everything just to help me..
But, sad to say, because I myself is concious about my attitude, I am being kinda rude with them :/ 
So true the saying that to those you love the most you reserve the worst attitude.. Arg! Why?! Maybe because you know that no matter who you become still they won't leave you alone in the midst of troubles.
And I thank the Almighty for gifting me with such great blessings.. Blessings that have LOVING PATIENCE.. 
Their understanding goes from etrnity to eternity, indeed!


And everyday, every hour, every minute and second I realise that I love them and treasure them!!! 

PS. thankyou. 

freedom

I wanna be free.. Free from doubts, from fears, from people's opinions, from everything that is holding me back from growing, be Monica and live the life that God has meant for me to live..


"Oh Lord.. I need more GRACE....................."

Why do people do things without being carefull if they're hurting others?! 

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God's works in the CYN ministry are priceless! :)

So much blessed! I love my CYN Family!!!

weakness

Glory be to God for being my immesurable and never lacking source of strength!


The message is clear. The revelation is the same. 
Therefore I conclude that there is no better place to be than dwelling in God's presence and do His perfect Will!
I was tempted so much specially last Satuday.. But true that the flesh dies in Prayer..
I feel now stronger, though the enemy is really working too. The battle is not yet over. I need more courage. I need more grace to overcome eveything. I really don't want this to pull me down. I need and I must take some action. I now know what I want. What I actually need. 
I am blessed with such a great family, with a ministry that helps me to grow in His knowledge. with a very cool Bestfriend.. I could not ask for more. Life seems to perfect. But. There is just ONE thing that is messing up everything. I've been dealing with that for so much time. I need changes. I need to take some action. But how? How can I? :( It's really hard for me. Though my family and my Bestfriend are always there to remind me what to do.. Still I found myslef again and all over again at the same exact point.
It could be a very little things for many. But this. This has been the cause for a pain that I am carrying thoughout these years, this has been the cause of many tears shed, this has been the cause of my sleepless night in total agaony. 
But I thank God. Indeed He has given not any situation that we canno't overcome. The power behind me is GREATER than the task ahead..
I am relying on His Spirit, depending on His power and counting on His grace to uphold me everyday.

kung fu panda

Kung Fu Panda is my new favourite anime!!! :) Credits to my Bestfriend who came to visit me the other day and made me watch this awsome movie!!! The movie taught me alot.. I'm blessed with Panda. So determined, so focused on the goal, so innocent and firm. Inspite of his nothingness, but because he knew that he was chosen, he was able to stand up on his calling and though the abilities were missing, he had to worry not, because his master would have surely helped him! He undergone through hard trainings that made him capable to finish his task and at the same time his sharpening process served his master to find the inner peace. That was two way process I can say.. Both for the master and for Panda.


I can see myslef in Panda. Well, I'm not really determined as he is. All I know is that my Master is calling me to do something bigger than me! This movie really marked my heart. It inspired me alot.. Because as Panda says.. "Real warrior NEVER quits!"
I was about to quit these weeks ago.. Wanted to escape from reality, wanted to go to that place where I would have lived at ease.. But no, God remimded me that here is my battle, that if I wanted Him to bring out the Monica He ever wanted, I had to face and fight my battle. 
Yes, Panda may have more courage than I. But I have a Master who's not needy to go through process because He is already Perfect. :) 


And I have this GREAT Master, who is able to keep me from falling, at my side.. Training my fingers for battles!


And at the end of the movie I just realised that...
I want a PANDA for my birthday.. :D :P

my source of strength

And the first day is almost gone.. :) My body is kinda weak.. But I fully believe that whenever the spirit is strong the body gets strong aswell!!! I'm prooving myslef that His words are what I need the most. To hear is voice is the greatest privilegde.. To bow my knees before His throne is the highest calling..


I'm learning again to die on my own flesh.. Waaa, before Tita was eating a delicious apple! And wherever I look.. TV, our table.. I see food! Maaan, I'm kinda craving, but as Jesus said.. that man shall not live by bread alone but by every words that proceeds from the mouth of God! :) And most of all, that like Jesus, my food is to do the will of the Father..


TO GOD BE THE GLORY for being my never lacking source of immesurable STRENGTH! :)

care

• A: what are you thinking of?
• B: I'm thinking of you.....
• A: of me?!?! What do you mean?
• B: Yeah, of you.. In general..

May you be blessed the more, you who put always other's needs before yours!!!

Though you have millions things to think about.. Still you have time to care for me...

My prayer goes with you wherver He leads you... I care! :)

Friday, 1st day.

The enemy is decieving me.. ARGH! He wants me to defeat him huh? And this will be!!!!
I'm kinda hungry :/ My tummy's strating aching.. But it's all right! I remember what a mighty warrior of God said.. "The moment your tummy is starting to complain the Lord is surely doing something.." :)
Got to soak the more my soul in His Presence!


Today God's revelation for my life is quite clear: "Real warrior NEVER quits and they fights their battle on their knees".
Yes! God is reminding me about the secret of a true warrior, which I believe He called me to be. I've been here, in this situation for so long, it's due time to make action and fight my battles first on my knees and conquer it in the spiritual realm and consequently do something, as the Scriptures say "Faith without action is dead!"
That's why now it's high time to make some action..
Through His strength, by His grace, for His glory!!! :)

3 days

Gloooooryyy in the Highest! :)


My Bestfriend asked me to join his 3 days Prayer and Fasting.. Starting from Friday til Sunday.
It will serve us to be more intimate and close to God and to hear His Perfect Will. :)
I'm excited and pretty scared to know His will.. Question like, what if I don't like His Will? ...Is passing in my mind. Surely the enemy is doing his best to decive me and for me not to follow God's leading.


I personally thank God for speaking in such a way to convict my Bestfriend and consequently to make me know about His lead.
My spirit is crying for His Spirit. My soul is craving for Living Water, for the Bread of Life..
This time will be different! Surely it will bring me to an higher level of faith and service..
I'm expecting so much from the Lord during these days..
I AM EXCITED!!! And I am ready to soak in His Presence!! :)


To my readers:
If you guys have any prayer request just comment on this.. And I will be very glad to help you, at least in prayer.. :)
And yes, please pray for us during this three days!
May the Lord bless you beyond measure!

idk :p

Is it a calling? Is it a desire? Is it a passion? It is just something that I want?


I DON'T KNOW :) But God is doing everything to confirm, to stir up that little zeal in my heat in helping those who are in need. Yes, because I'm having fun in helping, but maaaan! There is no such pirice that could ever buy the joy when I see people happy.. And most of all because I firmly believe that Jesus came to preach this.. Love. Yes, Love and Giving has no season. You love, you give.. Because you actually love doing so.. 
I had the opportunity to chat with kuya Bimboy! Waaaa. Truly he made my day!!! I didn't expect it.. He is such a great inspiration, the way he dedicated and devoted his whole life to the Lord has no comparison!
His giving heart.. His compassionate heart.. AHHH! I am praying for that!!! :)
(Wooops! He is not an idol :p)

dreams

I don't know what's happening to me lately. It all started on Sunday morning that I had my very first dream of the year. My very first after that silent period that I've been through. You guys have to know that God is most of the time speaking to me through dreams.. :) Wayback 2008, it was a july-hot-afternoon, I took a nap and in my dream I saw my Bestriend saying in tagalog: "Monica, Isaiah 1:17!! It's for you.." When I woke up I took the Bible and read what was in it. And in my surprise the verse was clearly speaking about the job He wants me to do, the studies He wanted me to pursue. 
Sometimes the dreams I am having are to confirm something in my life, to reveal secret things or to convict me and lead me to do something. 
Matter of fact, on Sunday I dreamt about my Kuya Eis.. It was like half year we didn't talk, but in my dream the Lord was telling me to approach him: there was a bed, I laid on it because I knew it was Kuya's and when he came I just hugged him, he hugged me back and I begun to cry. That's why on Sunday I phoned him and things went really great.
I remember one time, I dreamt about people not knowing their situation, and I prayed for them. Then all of a sudden I came to know that they were promoted in the ministry, they are having bad moments, or they are appointed to teach on Sunday. God's way of revealing things are really funny and cool! :)


But this time, this morning, I had almost 3 dreams. I counted them all cos every now and then I was waken up. But among these 3 dreams all I remember is the last.
God was confirming the situation in which I was placed. It was God saying, "Hei Monica, behind all you are being thourgh there am I." 
I was in Carrefour near my place with my Bestfriend and some of the CYN and a long lost high school friend who invited us all at her place. We decided to go and as everybody was running easily because the bus just came, then it was not for me. I was heavy and I had some difficulties to reach them. Matter of fact I was the last. My bestfriend tried to wait for me. Tried to stop the cars that were coming along. But nothing. The moment I was very near the bus and everyone was already inside it, and I was the only one left alone.. It went its way. Yes! The bus left me. Its number was 57, which actually I've never seen in my area. Then I took another bus 58 because I wanted to reach them even though I didn't know what stops 57 will do. 58 was empty, there were I and the driver.I pushed the button stop to at least follow the other bus and meet them but the driver didn't stopped. I got angry with the driver but he was too kind. He just said that I didn't prepotate my stop. And though my nerves were out of control, everytime that my phone was fallinf from my hands, though he was driving he minded to help me and give it to me. Then, he took me to an unknown place, so far and as I was going down from the bus he left me with this words "This is your stop..." I reach the ground and I don't remember anything else..


The revelation is clear.. It describes my actual situation.
He knows where He is leading me, He knows very well the place in which I can grow the more, be effective the more. And since no matter I do the lead is God's, I just humbly follow His leading. Believing that He is all-knowing and knows the best for me..


As I walk in His ways I pray for the strength and that He may find me always faithfull to the process.. 

LORD... :)

Strength, please?! :D

desirelessness

"Better is one day in Your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked." - Psalm 84:10


I used to recite this Bible verse in my exhortations before without knowing that I myself didn't understand at all its meaning. God opened my ears and heart this Youth Summit when Ptr. Bobot preached about "Intimacy with God" at the Leaders' Session. Until then I was used to know that verse by mind, not by heart. 
As I was immersed in God's presence with almost 5.000 general of the Lord, He right there spoke to me, reminding how humble was David's desire.
He would rather be a doorkeeper in the House of God than to dwell in the tents of the wicked.
He would prefer stay one second, one minute, one day of his life in God's presence than to spend life time enjoying sinning.
He would rather stay not even in, but just at the entrance of the temple than to live a life filled with earthly pleasures.
He would rather watch the Lord from the outside of the temple (take not, he is not even involved) than to join 100% wordly thing.
This is how David's desire was humble and desireless..


I am praying for such desire.. That though the world is offering me the best, something that I've ever longed for; I would resist and choose to be the doorkeeper of His house.. Choose Him always.
This verse is deeper than I've ever imagined! It talks about being desireless. 


"Desirelessness is letting go of everything you think you want, except the purpose of choosing to serve God only."

zZzZzZZz

Currently eating Hershey's Cookies and Cream!!! Delicious! :')


I can't wait anymore for my Parents' arrival! I missed them. I now undrstand that I canno't still make it without them. But surely I should learn how to stand on my own. I'm being the Mama of myslef now. Cooking, doing home's affairs.. Everything.. But I'm enjoying though I really miss them!


Anyways, this is what I was talking about..
http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/11218518
It's our kuya Bimboy's testimony.. Watch it and be inspired! Indeed GOD is alive! :)

the KUYA I've never had..

I don't actually remember how our kuya-relationship started.. Maybe on Dec 2007.. We've been through many things.. We've shared good memories, our personal problems and even bad moments.. But inspite of all these things, I can always say that he is the best kuya ever. I'm not his sister biologicaly but how he treats me and how I treat him is like brotherhood relationship.. I 've always prayed for a Kuya. A kuya that could help me anytime, a kuya that could protect me and advice me in time of problems. And there I found him. I found him with his selfless heart, his giving hand (whenever I 'm hungry he gives me money!) and his wise advice. 
Sometime we argue about little things, take note he is D, and I'm half D. That's why often we find ourselves in discussions. But just to confront our ideas, nothing personal, all done with love! :)
I missed him alot!!! For some reasons we stopped our comunication for like half year.. But yesterday, as I dreamt about him the night before (the message was clear: the Lord was telling me to approach him), I phoned him but that moment he was quite busy. In the evening he called me back.. Tears were flowing as he was speaking words of wisdom and encouragements over me.. The conversation went on..
I found again the same old kuya.. Ahhh!!! How I love this kuya of mine! He is the best.. Indeed he is the Kuya I've never had.. That's why I pray for him all the best in life, in any aspect of his life! That he may always find God's favor and blessing taking over his path..

Genesis Masangcay  is his name :)

Yes! My Bestfriend's kuya.

waiting upon the Lord

I am just waiting for God's perfect time, I have great news, I have to tell you so much thing.. One day.. I will :)

I simply know that it wil be beautiful :D As God's commands, as God prepared!

I am praying and looking forward for that day! It will surely come..

Don't get impartience, please wait with me as I wait upon the Lord..

As I am waiting I always include you in my prayers. Every now and then.

haays :')

Someone just called me.. :) Praise GOD for his life.. He is a blessing indeed.. And again, He demonstrated that He loves me.. He just revealed His Will in my life.. Again, the buried hope are raising for His glory.. I was hopeless and discouraged these past few days.. But his phonecall turned my view upside down! I am really surrounded with blessings. I am favored because I am His child! I am soooo loved unconditionally! And His plans for me I canno't fathom!!! Beautiful God, Wonderful Saviour, Awsome Father, All-knowing Master!!!


Thank you for all those who prayed for me.. I know you are one of them.. :)

Our BUS :) How I miss these moments and all the peoples inside this!

Soon again.

I've never thought that going home for good would trouble you.. I thought this would make you feel better..

I am so sorry..

I wish you know the whole story..

Anyways, I'm praying always. 

For you..

sunlight.

I was supposed to handle a group tomorrow.. But because of some inconvinience I am not able to attend the Youth Rage. I believe that God would understand me. 

It seems so unfair. But for the sake of others I will. I will rather stay just at the back and push people ahead of me than letting them to stay down and me enjoying. Specially when I am talking about someone dear to me. 

Good thing is that inspite of this, my relationship with God does not waver. I believe I can still worship Him wherever I am. Whatever I do. 

I'm not gonna let this to ruin what God has started. I am convinced that this is just way too small for Him! :D I'm not going to give up, rather, I will fight my best! After all..

Did you ever see the sun's light turning off just because it was raining? :)

No, I won't give up now! :D

Citipointe Live - Devoted (2008)

This is the latest song that ministers me alot.. :)

Indeed what a man would gain if he loses his soul in the end?

Scriptures say that if a man loses his own life for the sake of the Master, he will find it..

Today again and all over again I decide to lose my own life for His purpose and His heart's desire..

I am now running with blinded eyes and faith is the fuel.. 

phonecall and txt messages

Good afternoon :)


I was awaken by Mama's phonecall this morning.. She's so sweet.. Both of them are so caring and loving.. Knowing that tomorrow they will gonna have a family reunion it makes me miss them the more!!! I really wanna go back home.. And I pretty guess that I will.. :) I'll just wait them to come back and I will fly again soon.. My parents agreed, they respected my desicion though they are a bit worried.. I will let the WILL of GOD to be spoken once I get to talk in person with them.

Thank you for your messages this morning.. I wish I was able to reply.. Truth is, I was still sleeping.. Half of me wants to see you.. But I guess it's better this way.. No regrets, no hard feelings :) just Love. I salute you. And I am praying for you. Always and everyday.

yawn

It's always nice to be reminded by God that true Friendship exists!!! :) Praise God for the lives of my two girl friends. Without mentioning their name I know the moment they get to read this will undrstand that I am talking about them two! :D Clue: both are far from me and they live in the same country.. :P


Well, I'm now off.. :) He is waiting for me now.. :) And I got to prepare for Saturday.. Keep me guarded in your prayers..


Singing off :)

i miss you.. you are in my prayers. everyday and always.

know that.

thank you for your sincere prayers. thank you for your wide undrstanding. and unending patience. i will never forget that. the way you prayed for me on your knees and tears. praying with you was a great awsome and pricless experience. getting into God's presence with you on our knees can never be compared to any sweet thing you could ever do to me. i wish that moment never ended. i wish it could be repeated in the future. it is all treasured. nothing is wasted! THANK YOU is all my heart can say. You are the best. :)

3rd chapter - the istant you drown

Here we go again.. :) This is the third chapter of my wanna be book.. My walk on waters is not yer over.. I think it is a lifetime walk.. In this chapert I wanna talk about how I was about to drown into the deepest of water!! Yes, like Peter.. I did drown! I was about to die actually.. Since I fell into a thing bigger than me.. But never greater than my God.. :) As I was saying I did fall. My life jacket (prayer life) was missing.. Yes.. I lacked in prayers these months ago.. I didn't know how to swin.. I had cramps (I had so many discouragements) that's why I was not able to save myself.. But my Hero is always ever present.. The moment He saw me reaching for an help, He then gave me His two hands to save me from the waters that were eating me.. 


What I've learnt is that in this walk on water I may fall many time. Even for the same cause. I can.. But my God, the One who is leading me along this walk is always there to rescue me.. Second is that if I want to mantain a healthy walk and be distant from falls I should guard my prayer life as the only key to keep my eyes focused to the Author and the finisher of my faith..

with the Girls <3

on Bro's Bus with CYN International 

CYN iCare operation

These two beautiful young girls were my Kids :) 

to my readers

To you.. Yes YOU! :) Thank you for costantly reading my blogs.. May the God I've been always written about bless you beyond measure!!!

with so much Prayers...

Monica.

randomness plus confessions

These are the periods that I love the most! :) Times of brokenness. Yes, after the so wanted maturing time.. Here we go again.. Brokennes is the word! 
It's always good to go through hard times when you know the One is leading is no other than the God who made a way into the Red Sea! :) Ahhh! Awsome GOD!!!


I have to confess that I'm praying to go home for good! Hopefully with my parents too.. But I don't think it would be possible since they are working in here.. OR.. To go to Canada (my dream country) to work/study and live there.. 
Mama is right.. I am now 20.. I mean, turning 20.. I have to stand up with my own feet whether I like it or not.. So, I'm getting ready for this big step of my life.. But still I am in a fervent praying period.. I got one week, well actually, God has one week to reveal me things.. I believe that His plans for me are the best.. I'm not worrying where He may lead.. I'm not worrying to leave this place in which I grew up.. Where I knew Him.. Ahh! So much memories.. I'm just asking Him, that if He has to move me in some other place, that He may be leading me to that place in which He will gonna use my life mightly.. This is all I ask.. This is the passion of my heart! 
Well actually my inner desire is to help and share what I have with people, specially with the needy ones.. I remember the time my feet reached the home for the age last December 2010 for an iCare operation.. My inmost voice spoke and said.. "This is life.." I don't know now if it is just a coincidence.. But there was joy. The voice was telling me that that was my life!!! And every time I think about that, a sincere smile take place in my heart.. I don't know what God has reserved for me.. All I know is that I am called.. I want to be a Missionera? :p yeah.. People who goes all around for missions to help others.. I've just been inspired by the life of our driver last December.. Kuya Bimboy.. A former snatcher now a christian bornagain that knows the real meaing of having compassion to others.. He was able to share to me some things.. I don't know why me!!! I was just there.. Sitting at the Holyday Inn's fourth floor waiting for Mama.. And suddenly he came with his big smile, sitted next me and begun to talk about their projects.. Sharing with me priceless experiences, life changing experinces. 
Still I know that I'm not ready for that.. I just wish.. Or if God didn't called me in such ministry, at least.. Wherever He may be placing me He would use this life to help other.. 


Waaaaaaa. I'm so random. My former intention, as you can see the start of this post, was to tell about my broken situation. HAHA! Maan. Indeed.. When you look up.. When you look on Jesus and at the big mandate He has called you to fulfill, you will suddenly forget about your situation.. And start to dream big dreams for His glory.. :)

unveiling the truth.

I just had a heart to heart talk with Mama. I thank God everyday for my parents.. No miles, no kms could ever seperate us.. She may be at the opposite side of the globe, but still I can count on her. Though it's 12am in the Philippines, I find her always ready to lend me her ears..

I opened up my heart.. I told her that I wanted to live in Philippines.. With them.. That I wanna fly now to go there back.. I can't stay here.. Not without them!

meet the God I serve :)

I missed God so much! The way He used to speak to me, to reveal things and to wispher random things in my ears.. I missed His sweetness.. And truly, if He wants you back He will cause you to do the biggest, ever worst, most ugly sin in this world just for you to turn to Him again.. I like the way He uses bad things and mess to turn them in the end into your favor.. :) I had struggle alot this past few months with my faith.. I was not hearing anymore His voice.. I had the same period.. the Silent period that took place between Malachi and Matthew! Ahhh! No revelations, no impacts.. But I knew deep within that my souls was longing for Him, that Monica wanted Him bad at any cost. So true that your soul canno't lie.. As I got on my knees and trembling was speaking the name of my Lord.. My inmost being begun to cry.. To speak.. That was the moment my soul was delivered from any kind of oppression, freed from the enemy's chains..
I had a tremendous encounter with God.. That indeed marked my life! Once again He prooved Himself faithfull to His words.. No one could ever compare to Him!! 


And do you know the feeling of being unworthy?! :'( I don't know but tears are flooding my face now.. Do you know the feeling of being nothing. As in nothing. Knowing that you are the worst sinner ever lived still, you have a God, a Father, a Friend like Jesus, like God, like the Holy Spirit.. That no matter what you do still they are there to confort you, to accept you, to understand you.. I never knonw Someone like the Triune God-Head! They are actually all that I have.. Specially this point of time.. When no one is litteraly around.. I found Them there.. That though many time I rejected them, still They are always the first to run just to rescue you.. And this is just the beginning..
If I ask you if you know the awkward feeling of being appointed to do something.. Something of which you are really unworthy.. cos you know by yourself that you are a failure.. A bunch of dust.. But still, because you prayed a simple prayer that I dont actually undrstood that moment.. He picks you up from the darkness, put you into light and make you able to do things for His glory.. 
I can't explain this kind of Love.. A Love that loves beyond anything.. A Love stronger than any sin.. A love that covers mutlitudes of wrong doing..


A LOVE THAT ONLY THE TRIUNE GOD-HEAD CAN GIVE.. :)


I may be the worst sinner ever lived in this world.. But I stand still by grace cos I have a HighPriest that is able to symphatize with my many infinite weaknesses..


To God be the Glory. Always.

sincere prayers

"Lord, you see my heart. You see my soul and everything in me. I don't really know how to make things happen, but You said that I can do all things through You who gives me strength. I am weak, but You are strong and more than enough! I have no good things, but You've clothe me with Your rigtheousness! I am afraid and scared. Alot, but there's no fear in Your Love. LORD, I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER BEFORE! Come and rescume me.. I NEED YOU."

L O V E

i so miss Mama and Papa :(

it's really different when your loved ones are far away from you.. I miss them a lot,

their care.. their smiles.. everything.

I'm now feeling a bit alone and sad. Here at home is so quiet. There is only the TV that's talking.

I thank God that in spite of this situation, He sends people like Bestfriend to lighten my days. To make me realize

that I'm not all alone. 

"You don't need to know where you're going if you know God is leading"

now a man.

"Hei, just want to say thank you, you're a great lady, God has chosen you to do great things! :)

I'm priviledge to be fighting the fight of faith with you! You are in my prayers, always! :)"

I'm so undeserving. I don't really merit these words. I do not. 

I'm standing amazed at God's works in his life.. How God changed him from glory to glory to bring out of him a matured MAN! Yes a true man! I'm happy for him.. :) On where he is right now.. Not being moved by anything but "always fighting with all his best that he could win and in the end could cry." 

He is a pure example of a genuine warrior.. Not easy to knock down! He inspires and encourages me alot, specially in this point of my life where in he is being very near and thoughtfull!

I love the positive and optimistic spirit in him, I wish I could have some of it! I love the way he sees things and the way he believes and hopes always no matter. He is a man of faith. That desires nothing but to serve the more God. In every single thing! A good friend, a caring brother, a special and precious person, very dear to me.

the Bros

On saturday we went to Assago and Carrefour with CYN family!
It was a great day! I spent it all almost with the Masangcay Bros. They are great and sweet!
We tried to play to the arcade but sad to say was a real failure. LOL. We weren't able to pick the stufftoy after 4 times! :( sad.


We did iceskating and learnt a bit how to skate with foot in line.. I don't know if I'm giving the idea :P
I had then my dinner with the Brothers. I had a lot of fun! 


So sad that someone was missing :(

Sleepless nights

Yesterday afternoon I went to church to celebrate Sheeryn's 18th birthday! Credits to those who organized it.. It went really good!! :)


I hosted Kim, who is celebrating today her 23rd birthday today, at my place because she would be the one leading in worship on the Sunrise service. 
We had our dinner, together with my Bestfriend who left us as soon as he finished his Zesto, and had a loooooong interesting talk! :) I missed her.. And the prayer of my heart is that she may be able to fulfill God's calling in her life.. Which I believe is bigger than she could ever imagine!!!


I was supposed to attend the Sunrise but I was not able. I was too sleepy!!! This morning I woke up at 9am believing that it was only 7am. FAIL.


I am now preparing to go to iceskating!!! Oh, how I miss skating on ice! :P
For those who doesn't know.. I am a frustrated ice skater! LOL. It was my very first sport, wayback 1998! I was only 7.. :) Ok ok. Too much and I'm late. :/ 

Name it! I'm blessed with a great, understanding, patience and poging Bestfriend! Credits to God!!! :D


I don't really know how he does that! I don't know why he does things that way! And most especially, WHY?! I don't merit them. I don't deserve his care, his ears, his encouragements. He is too much for me..
I'm thankfull to God that He placed the right person in my life. Though he really knows the true Monica, all my faults, my darkest side and my bad attitudes, still his undeserving presence is right there when and where ever I would be in need of that..


I acknowledge God behind all these things.. I thank Him for making our path cross again and angain no matter what happens..


My Bestfriend is a true extention of God's love and care.. He is my treasure, my blessing.

Today I woke up at 4am! Maan, indeed I'm still adjusting.. My bodyclock is now confused! Poor him.
I'm as always hungry but there's no food at all.. I wanna go shopping today, but I guess I should save money for future projects :)


I just watched My Amnesia Girl.. I recommend that film! :) Corny, yet sweet in its way.. I can relate. JOKE! :P 
I wish I watched it with Rhan!!


Things are going good as for now.. Hope it will go for better :) I'm starting to mature a bit.. Controlling my emotions was really hard for me before.. Specially when it comes to jelousy.. But as I always remind myself that TRUE Love is NOT jelous, I am learning to Love. Things that before would make mad, now has power NO more on me! Praise God! :D


I just called Mama again.. She's at Robinson's.. And said.. "Sige na, mamaya na kayo tumawag baka maagaw ang cellphone ko!" HAHAHA! That made me laugh so hard.. No one would have any interest for her cellphone.. Feeling! Haha!

watching My Amnesia Girl :)

homevisit

My Bestfriend visited me today :) I wans't able to go to church so we decided to meet somewhere else, but since I was cold he visited me.. We had a very nice two hours laughtrips! We watched one of his favourite TV program, played guitar, talked about some books and laughed because someone called me and someone asked him to take pictures.
Time flies when I'm with him! In the midst of a boring day he knows how to enlighten it! :D 


Just had my dinner.. I feel like to blow! :S 

unstoppable is the word!

Good Morning blogspot world! :)


I woke up at 6am and from that time on I had no sleep till now.. I'm still adjusting! 
I am now alone at home, just had my medicine for my burning stomach.. I'm kinda hungry but I don't want to cook.. Hehe. I wish I am still in Philippines so that I would just call for a tricicle and go to Jollibee or somewhere else to eat! I called Mama just few minutes ago.. Oh, how I miss them! 


Anyways.. :) It's is always good to wake up and be reminded of His great Love!

"His love has no limits, His Grace has no end, He is not bounded by my weaknesses.. He is UNSTOPPABLE God! He is MY God! :)"

Your Love oh Lord gives me alyways hope! Thank You!!!

the Andok's Chicken :)

6:03am - my plane from Singapore landed in Milan. Tito Obet was waiting for me at the exit door.. And my bestfriend at Bande Nere! :) I was really surprised!!! It made my heart melt that he welcomed me in such a very touching way. :P Hehe. Ok ok. Done :P


He spent just 10minutes and went away. I phoned him saying that he left his so wanted Andok's chicken. But he said that I would have to eat that since it will get bad. I was a bit offended, went in my room and slept. After 10 minutes the doorbell rung.


"I'm back for the chicken", he said with a big smile on his face. I made him enter home and talked just for awhile.. :) 

New Year Eve.


Magallon and Juaneza's went at our place.. We had our lunch and dinner together and Mama invited a Pastor to share the salvation to everyone. :) I was really happy! That made my vacation compleate! :)


I did lot of things that I can't remember them all. I enjoyed my stay in Philippines. Surely it will be repeated this coming December. :) Praise God for the sucessfull vacation!

iCare :)

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This is the week in which we had our meetings, summit and iCare operation :)


First of all, I'm thankfull to my God that He gave me this priviledge to be part of this big event that surely made a significant impact in my life. It was indeed a great experience.. I was able to meet my coo-leaders from different countries. At first I was intimidated. They were all speaking in PERFECT SLANG english!!! Nosebeed! :P


The Unstoppable Youth Summit 2010 was AWSOME! We were all in all 11.000 young people worshipping together the same faithfull God! :) KKBs are so inspiring! Their unstoppable passion in serving God is contagious!


But what really touched my heart was the iCare operation :)
I liked and enjoyed this portion alot! Specially with the Kids..
I was like.. I wanted to give everything I had to them. Their greatfull attitude made an impact.. Thery were so thankfull for an 150 pesos tshirt and a jollibee meal. It made me realized how blessed I am. How God is really good in my life..
The afternoon we went to a home for the aged.. I was scared a bit.. But as I get in touch with lolos and lolas I found them very funny and in search of a bit of care and love :)


I thank God for using this life to be an extention of His love, care and blessing..
Indeed it's better to give than to recieve :)

family family family

The 25th I spent it with the Juaneza's :) They came all at my place and we had lunch together :)

The following day I and my cousins went to Eastwood to watch "Ang tanging Ina mo, Last na 'to". Maaaaaan! AWSOME to the highest level! Super laughtrip! Ayay is indeed funny! :)

As I reached home Mama and Papa were already waiting for me.. :) It was nice to see them again! :D

the true meaning of Christmas

Christmas day is the reason why I went to Philippines. Since July I ever wanted to go home.. I had a very  important thing to share with my family. 

Thank God, He gave me this chance to share His love. On the 24th I was able to reunite the Magallon's at my place. We had a simple dinner.. Fried chicken was all I ate, but eating that piece of chicken with them was priceless! :) Priceless was even the moment I shared God's love and salvation to them. Yes! This is the reason I went to Philippines. I canno't even think that one day all alone will I enjoy heaven's gifts. 

I'm praying for them.. For them to encounter God the way I encoutered and still encountering Him :)

day 1.

There is really too much to blog about.. Lets flash back for a while.


Dec 23 - I had to fly for Philippines. I was a bit sad without knowing that I would need that. The flight was pretty good. I landed in Manila on time and my cousins were right there to pick me up. We had our lunch at Makati in a very good restaurant. It was my first time to eat Sinangag na Siniggang (I don't know if the spelling is right) and it tasted so great! It is a sort of fried rice with siniggang.. I don't know if I made the idea. Hehe.
I suddenly then recieved a txt from my Bestfriend saying that God woke him up to pray in the middle of the night. It was the time my tummy hurted so bad and my plane was going through turbulences. It's amazing how prayer connects people and God :)
The night I went to the Magallon's :) I was resisting my emotions. I didn't want to cry. They really touched my heart! And all I can say is I LOVE THEM ALL!