Thursday, October 27, 2011
Sukdulan Biyaya
"Sa panahon na tayo ay mabaho, sa panahon na tayo ay palpak, sa panahon na tayo ay marumi at walang nagmamahal natutunan tayong yakapin at halikan ng pa-ulit ulit ng Dios Amang nag mamahal sa bawat isa sa atin."
Lazarus Awakening
Have you ever felt like no body appreciates you? Or better like the people that you expect to love, they seem not to love you? Like the people you hoped they cared, they seem not to...?
You believe that God loves the world… But sometimes you wonder if He truly loves you.
Alright! I had this burden in my heart, and I don't deny to still having it. This was the thing that God wanted me to deal with, and I am still dealing with it. Two weeks ago I really felt this strong burden, that no body really loves and cares for me. The people I hoped that they would do, seemed so indifferent and doing the exact opposite thing. I was in distress. I remember one Saturday, I was eating my lunch, and right there, I tried to hide my tears from Ma because I really felt unloved. After eating I ran to my room and cried in pain to the Lord asking to take away that burden. The more I was asking to take it away, the more my heart was getting heavier.
But there I have been reminded of His great Love, that if I would try to define and describe it I would lessen its very essence and I would just terribly fail.
God led me to read the book I bought when I was in Canada. Its title is "Lazarus Awakening". And thank God, He spoke through the story of the dead man, yet the man Jesus loves the most!
For many of us, moving the truth of God’s love from our heads to our hearts is a lifelong process. As we consider our inadequacies or grieve our shattered dreams, we find it difficult to believe that God cares for us personally.
Jesus loves you apart from anything you accomplish, apart from anything you bring. Just as He called Lazarus forth to new life, Jesus wants to free you to live fully in the light of His love, unbound from the graveclothes of fear, regret, and self-condemnation.
Hei, you... LOVE is calling your name :)
You believe that God loves the world… But sometimes you wonder if He truly loves you.
Alright! I had this burden in my heart, and I don't deny to still having it. This was the thing that God wanted me to deal with, and I am still dealing with it. Two weeks ago I really felt this strong burden, that no body really loves and cares for me. The people I hoped that they would do, seemed so indifferent and doing the exact opposite thing. I was in distress. I remember one Saturday, I was eating my lunch, and right there, I tried to hide my tears from Ma because I really felt unloved. After eating I ran to my room and cried in pain to the Lord asking to take away that burden. The more I was asking to take it away, the more my heart was getting heavier.
But there I have been reminded of His great Love, that if I would try to define and describe it I would lessen its very essence and I would just terribly fail.
God led me to read the book I bought when I was in Canada. Its title is "Lazarus Awakening". And thank God, He spoke through the story of the dead man, yet the man Jesus loves the most!
For many of us, moving the truth of God’s love from our heads to our hearts is a lifelong process. As we consider our inadequacies or grieve our shattered dreams, we find it difficult to believe that God cares for us personally.
Jesus loves you apart from anything you accomplish, apart from anything you bring. Just as He called Lazarus forth to new life, Jesus wants to free you to live fully in the light of His love, unbound from the graveclothes of fear, regret, and self-condemnation.
Hei, you... LOVE is calling your name :)
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
agent Bartowski
Lately I'm so in with this teleserie. It is actually my bestfriend's fault. He kept on talking about that long time ago and just because during this days I'm home doing nothing, I decided to give a try to this teleserie. I am now watching Season 3 and I just started last week! Yes! I became addicted to this. You should try it! This is one of the best teleserie I ever watched. Chuck Bartowski is the title.
Chuck Bartowski works at the Buy More, a simple guy but very special: he is the Intersect (he has all CIA's secrets in his mind) and because of that he is protected by agent Casey and Sarah. Sarah's covarage was Chuck's girlfriend. They, in short faked a relationship in order for them to protect Chuck the more. To make believe others they acted as a real couple; but... Chuck and Sarah really fel inlove. Something started quite as a game ended in something deep and serious. Work binded them, but more than that there were feelings and love. As Chuck grew and became expert controlling the intersect the CIA begun to train him as a real spy.
And the story goes on...
Chuck and Sarah's love story. I want to focus on this.
Eventually they had loved and grew feeling for each other. But as most of the time they reminded each other that was just a coverage, that in reality they are just co-workers and there was nothing between them but work alone. Feelings kept mixing with the work and most of the time the work itself paid for that. There was an instance in which Sarah proposed Chuck to ran away and start a new life, their life together, but Chuck denied thinking of what the Itersect could do for many people. And they just kept on going and doing their works ignoring their feelings as they keep always reminding themselves that "a true spy does not fall in love".
Sometimes, many times we are led to desicions between something you really want and like and love and ever desired and something you know it's good for others and you know that it's your very call.
Therefore feelings are telling you some things, you reason other things. What to choose? You don't know. You try to compromise, to give some justifications. But nothing. It's confused more than before!
We as Christians are always led to choose God's very will, which is in contrast most of the time with the things "you really want and like and love and ever desired". That's why, after seeking God's will, you still choose to do what is the best for you though you don't really like it. Though sometimes there is nothing to do with you, though it will just hurt you and cause you pain. But you still courageously take that path because you know that it will lead you toward everlasting rewards... You choose to obey to His voice, with your eyes closed.
And as you keep your journey, there are points in your life that makes you think. Why am I making everything so difficult for me? When actually I can follow what I really want.
I've been crying to the Lord lately. I kept myself in silence and let my heart speak before Him asking these things. Asking why I can't be just for a second weak, just for a second do what I really want, just for a second stop and forget my responsability and enjoy my life as every twenty years old girls do!?
And right there, I've been reminded of my purpose. I've been reminded of my dreams for the Ministry of God, I've been reminded that true life is found when you lose it! That one day I and you will be reaping all the pain and everything and say "It was worth it". That if I seek first Him everything will be added. That I can never out give Him. That He loves me. And that I love Him too.
Truth is that we don't need any other reason, any other purpose, any other inspiration because His love is inspiring enough, is a sufficient reason and a valid purpose to follow the call of our lives and simply obey Him.
Chuck Bartowski works at the Buy More, a simple guy but very special: he is the Intersect (he has all CIA's secrets in his mind) and because of that he is protected by agent Casey and Sarah. Sarah's covarage was Chuck's girlfriend. They, in short faked a relationship in order for them to protect Chuck the more. To make believe others they acted as a real couple; but... Chuck and Sarah really fel inlove. Something started quite as a game ended in something deep and serious. Work binded them, but more than that there were feelings and love. As Chuck grew and became expert controlling the intersect the CIA begun to train him as a real spy.
And the story goes on...
Chuck and Sarah's love story. I want to focus on this.
Eventually they had loved and grew feeling for each other. But as most of the time they reminded each other that was just a coverage, that in reality they are just co-workers and there was nothing between them but work alone. Feelings kept mixing with the work and most of the time the work itself paid for that. There was an instance in which Sarah proposed Chuck to ran away and start a new life, their life together, but Chuck denied thinking of what the Itersect could do for many people. And they just kept on going and doing their works ignoring their feelings as they keep always reminding themselves that "a true spy does not fall in love".
Sometimes, many times we are led to desicions between something you really want and like and love and ever desired and something you know it's good for others and you know that it's your very call.
Therefore feelings are telling you some things, you reason other things. What to choose? You don't know. You try to compromise, to give some justifications. But nothing. It's confused more than before!
We as Christians are always led to choose God's very will, which is in contrast most of the time with the things "you really want and like and love and ever desired". That's why, after seeking God's will, you still choose to do what is the best for you though you don't really like it. Though sometimes there is nothing to do with you, though it will just hurt you and cause you pain. But you still courageously take that path because you know that it will lead you toward everlasting rewards... You choose to obey to His voice, with your eyes closed.
And as you keep your journey, there are points in your life that makes you think. Why am I making everything so difficult for me? When actually I can follow what I really want.
I've been crying to the Lord lately. I kept myself in silence and let my heart speak before Him asking these things. Asking why I can't be just for a second weak, just for a second do what I really want, just for a second stop and forget my responsability and enjoy my life as every twenty years old girls do!?
And right there, I've been reminded of my purpose. I've been reminded of my dreams for the Ministry of God, I've been reminded that true life is found when you lose it! That one day I and you will be reaping all the pain and everything and say "It was worth it". That if I seek first Him everything will be added. That I can never out give Him. That He loves me. And that I love Him too.
Truth is that we don't need any other reason, any other purpose, any other inspiration because His love is inspiring enough, is a sufficient reason and a valid purpose to follow the call of our lives and simply obey Him.
changes challenges opportunities
I keep on thinking all over again about that... I can't deny the fact that I am worrying but I am giving everything to the Lord... This is another step on the water. A step of faith toward God's perfect will.
Will I be ever able? Am I the one for that? Do I fit for that? I don't know. I am not able!
Questions of doubt mixed with answers full of fear.
Lord, take me wherever I will please and honor you the most! Give us strength to do Your will, as we follow every single instruction and submit to the lead of the Holy Spirit.
BE GLORIFIED, this is the prayer of our hearts...
Will I be ever able? Am I the one for that? Do I fit for that? I don't know. I am not able!
Lord, take me wherever I will please and honor you the most! Give us strength to do Your will, as we follow every single instruction and submit to the lead of the Holy Spirit.
BE GLORIFIED, this is the prayer of our hearts...
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Home Visit
Thank you for visiting me at home... You surely are the extension of God's tender love... :)
Saturday, October 22, 2011
bronchitis
Just got home from the Hospital. This morning as I woke up I blew out blood. Ofcourse Mama and everyone were panicing - I might understand them, because it was the second time. We ran to the Hospital and, thank God, they assisted me quickly. The doctor found that I got bronchitis!
I won't be able to go to church today I guess.. Mama doesn't want me to... I'll surely miss the CYN!
Thanks to my lovely Friends for the tender care..
I won't be able to go to church today I guess.. Mama doesn't want me to... I'll surely miss the CYN!
Thanks to my lovely Friends for the tender care..
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