I got to know a person. I will hide his name with Mr. Answer.
Mr. Answer is actually the answer of my prayers.. I got a list with the characteristic of my ideal hubby.. (Please forgive me, after all it's February.. But I assure you, I'm not focused on this.. No! I got lot of things to do still..) Anyways..
Mr. Answer is developing the same exact characteristic that I wrote on that now-missing piece of paper for wich a long time ago I started to cry out to the Lord.
I see in Mr. Answer leadership skills. His being so prayerfull and his being so humble, his so being so sensitive to the very will of God. And it all remind me about what I wrote like 1 year ago..
I've never thought of him. That he would be Mr. Answer. Werid. But I look on him as my brother now.
Monday, February 7, 2011
the fantastic four
I will not name them one by one. Or else I will give them already the glory that they are supposed to recieve in Heaven.. But I am really blessed with the lives of this four! They are my inner inspiration.. They are the answer of my prayers! CYN Milan is now more secured because of this four who selflessly responded to God's call, who choose to risk their lives and pay the price in serving Him.
I get inspired eveytime I see them. I get re-charged!
And last Saturday we had the honor to fly with the eagles. We were given the opportunity to attend WIN's prayer meeting.. And I really hope that that kind od experience helped them to understand the more what God called them for..
I'm more than excited for them. My only prayer is that they may always realise the honor that God gave them, an honor that God choose to give just to FEW people.. And that they are part of those few.
A special thanks to the life of my Bestfriend. He is awsome maaaan! :)
I get inspired eveytime I see them. I get re-charged!
And last Saturday we had the honor to fly with the eagles. We were given the opportunity to attend WIN's prayer meeting.. And I really hope that that kind od experience helped them to understand the more what God called them for..
I'm more than excited for them. My only prayer is that they may always realise the honor that God gave them, an honor that God choose to give just to FEW people.. And that they are part of those few.
A special thanks to the life of my Bestfriend. He is awsome maaaan! :)
the fee
The price is really high.. Having people from different ages looking at you is never easy. If you fail there's a lot of chance that you'd disapoint them.. After all you canno't please everyone, but we should be always be after our integrity.. And the price is really salty! I've never thought of it. Much is given, more is required! Honestly, the task is not given to me. But God made me realized that I play a very important role. If I keep being the same old Monica, His plans could never be fulfilled in his life. This is hard.. But everytime God remembers me how He is using his life lately, the fear of the Lord increses.
And sometime, I fear talking with him. Weird. I canno't almost look straightly in his eyes because I fear that something may happen. I canno't talk to him in person, and even on the phone (I get mute everytime I intend to start a conversation..). And I canno't even express myself. Canno't share with him things that I've used to share. We didn't talk often as we were used to. And I don't know what is this. It kinda bother me. It's like I was A, and suddenly it became C, missing totally the B! I'm missing a step, I'm feeling like lost.
It's is actually happening what should be happening long time ago. The weird thing is that I'm not making any effort for it to happen. I simply know that behind this there is my big God. And if He is behind all these. All I got to do is to low my heart before is Will.
Inspite of all this, I believe that the Plan Maker is in control! He knows what He is doing. Now, there is more understanding, there is more self-control, though I really miss him alot! Missing him in a good way, in a friendly way. I just miss our laugh trips. That's all I miss... But I was saying I'm really content and amazed on how God is moving in our heart, personally and individually. I'm praying for the strength to wait.. To just to be still and make Him move alone. I'll take it as an inspiration.. I'm feeling kinda weird. A mixture of feelings. I'm happy and yet not.. But no! I should rejoice. Finally He is taking the right place of honor in our hearts, in my heart.
Oh Lord, carry me through this situation... :)
And sometime, I fear talking with him. Weird. I canno't almost look straightly in his eyes because I fear that something may happen. I canno't talk to him in person, and even on the phone (I get mute everytime I intend to start a conversation..). And I canno't even express myself. Canno't share with him things that I've used to share. We didn't talk often as we were used to. And I don't know what is this. It kinda bother me. It's like I was A, and suddenly it became C, missing totally the B! I'm missing a step, I'm feeling like lost.
It's is actually happening what should be happening long time ago. The weird thing is that I'm not making any effort for it to happen. I simply know that behind this there is my big God. And if He is behind all these. All I got to do is to low my heart before is Will.
Inspite of all this, I believe that the Plan Maker is in control! He knows what He is doing. Now, there is more understanding, there is more self-control, though I really miss him alot! Missing him in a good way, in a friendly way. I just miss our laugh trips. That's all I miss... But I was saying I'm really content and amazed on how God is moving in our heart, personally and individually. I'm praying for the strength to wait.. To just to be still and make Him move alone. I'll take it as an inspiration.. I'm feeling kinda weird. A mixture of feelings. I'm happy and yet not.. But no! I should rejoice. Finally He is taking the right place of honor in our hearts, in my heart.
Oh Lord, carry me through this situation... :)
fear...
...of the Lord!
Yes! Fear of the Lord is the answer for an healthy relationship.. :)
One day as I was praying for a person, God led me in the book of Proverbs. There we can find King Solomon's very wise saying.. God made me read a passage about wisdom.. I, then started to pray for wisdom and speak it over this person's life thinking it was for him.. But unknowingly, God was moving in my heart.. Obviusly He wanted me to pray for something deeper.. For fear of the Lord! He wanted me to fear Him.
And this is the very secret for an heathly, godly and pure relationship.. I tell you.. If you fear God, automatically He is in the center of your relationship, and you, both of you, will be able to discern the pure from the unpure and to preserve your heart blameless..
Happy Heart's month everyone :)
Yes! Fear of the Lord is the answer for an healthy relationship.. :)
One day as I was praying for a person, God led me in the book of Proverbs. There we can find King Solomon's very wise saying.. God made me read a passage about wisdom.. I, then started to pray for wisdom and speak it over this person's life thinking it was for him.. But unknowingly, God was moving in my heart.. Obviusly He wanted me to pray for something deeper.. For fear of the Lord! He wanted me to fear Him.
And this is the very secret for an heathly, godly and pure relationship.. I tell you.. If you fear God, automatically He is in the center of your relationship, and you, both of you, will be able to discern the pure from the unpure and to preserve your heart blameless..
Happy Heart's month everyone :)
Thursday, February 3, 2011
fragile
Things happened so fast. Didn't expect that in such a blink of an eye the enemy could work at his best.. But praise the Almighty, who's totally in controll of everything, He made ways for His will to be done!
I thank God.. And I want to stay with Him right now.. I need The Friend. I want Him like I've never wanted Him before. My soul is crying desperetly for His Presence.. I need a break from everything, from everyone.. I wish God could take me to our secret place, where I and Him will be standing face to face.. Ohhh! How I miss bonding with Him.. Truly that there is a vacum in our heart that nothing and no one could ever fill that empty space.. Cos that emptiness could be only filled by Him. And Him alone.
Oh Lord.. Guard my heart with The Peace that surpasses all understanding.. This I ask, in Jesus' Name.
I thank God.. And I want to stay with Him right now.. I need The Friend. I want Him like I've never wanted Him before. My soul is crying desperetly for His Presence.. I need a break from everything, from everyone.. I wish God could take me to our secret place, where I and Him will be standing face to face.. Ohhh! How I miss bonding with Him.. Truly that there is a vacum in our heart that nothing and no one could ever fill that empty space.. Cos that emptiness could be only filled by Him. And Him alone.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Psalm 27
1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked advance against me
to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.
4 One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.
13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked advance against me
to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.
4 One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.
13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
blessings all around - chapter 4
This would be the fourth chapter of my wanna be book.. :)
The title says it all.. YES! I'm totally surrounded with blessing.. Starting from my Bestfriend and his mother..
Truly in this walk on waters of mine God will never make me feel alone, He will surely provide people to help you when you drown.. And this makes me feel very blessed!!!
Nobody knows but I am going through a very difficult situation.. In which the first people you are counting on to encourage you, are those who actually stopped to believe in you..
But praise God.. His love is ever-abounding that He showed me His care through a very thoughtfull and selfless Bestfriend, who will do E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G! As in everything just to help me.. In words and deeds! As a matter of fact.. Because he wanted to help me, he phoned his mother. O.o Asking her if she could call me and advice me.. Dear Tita tried to call me,but I was so intimidate.. That's why I didn't respond her phonecalls.
But on Sunday evening, as she was standing there and our eyes crossed once in a while.. I could not help but to approach her saying.. "Tita, may time po kayo?"
With a big smile she assured me her time a brought me to her office.. We were there, sitting..For the very first time we were not about to discuss regarding "Love matters" as we always did before.. It was something surely deeper.. I told her things that even to my Bestfriend I've never told! It seemed that we were talking about that like always.. The way she understood me, expalined me things were really awsome! Her spirit of faith, her courage, her being unstoppable.. Transfered to me.. She is such a great person, a friend, a wall of prayer.. :)
And now.. After 3 years.. As I look back and remember what God made me see that prayer meeting.. Woah! It was like yesterday.. Tita Kit was preaching, preaching about people that you will be wall of.. Wall of prayer.. I asked God to show me someone.. I saw her.. I opened my eyes and I saw her son infront of me singing, I closed my eyes and I saw again his son at her back.. And the image begun to fade..
I thought I was called to be her son's wall. Matter of fact, before my Bestfriend became my Bestfriend (we were just friends that moment) we were used to call each others.. "Wall.." We were the walls..
But now, I understand the more what I saw.. My Bestfriend's Mother is a blessing.. A wall.. :)
The title says it all.. YES! I'm totally surrounded with blessing.. Starting from my Bestfriend and his mother..
Truly in this walk on waters of mine God will never make me feel alone, He will surely provide people to help you when you drown.. And this makes me feel very blessed!!!
Nobody knows but I am going through a very difficult situation.. In which the first people you are counting on to encourage you, are those who actually stopped to believe in you..
But praise God.. His love is ever-abounding that He showed me His care through a very thoughtfull and selfless Bestfriend, who will do E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G! As in everything just to help me.. In words and deeds! As a matter of fact.. Because he wanted to help me, he phoned his mother. O.o Asking her if she could call me and advice me.. Dear Tita tried to call me,
But on Sunday evening, as she was standing there and our eyes crossed once in a while.. I could not help but to approach her saying.. "Tita, may time po kayo?"
With a big smile she assured me her time a brought me to her office.. We were there, sitting..
And now.. After 3 years.. As I look back and remember what God made me see that prayer meeting.. Woah! It was like yesterday.. Tita Kit was preaching, preaching about people that you will be wall of.. Wall of prayer.. I asked God to show me someone.. I saw her.. I opened my eyes and I saw her son infront of me singing, I closed my eyes and I saw again his son at her back.. And the image begun to fade..
I thought I was called to be her son's wall. Matter of fact, before my Bestfriend became my Bestfriend (we were just friends that moment) we were used to call each others.. "Wall.." We were the walls..
But now, I understand the more what I saw.. My Bestfriend's Mother is a blessing.. A wall.. :)
visions...
It all started during the overnight.. It was a worship service actually.. I was immersed in the Spirit of God.. As suddenly my heart's cry turned into.. "Lord, breathe in me life.." (Which the preacher of the afternoon service will mention during the ministiring time)
Then I saw a battle.. One side was formed by an army.. A black army.. The other side.. I was not able to see what was formed of.. But in the upper part of this something.. There was a breathe of wind.. It was rosy.. Very sweet.. Calm and gentle.. I think it was the Holy Spirit.. And as He reached the other army.. Their black swords were made into pieces.. But the coolest thing here is that now I know why the Spirit is called sweet.. :) People used to say.. "..Sweet fellowship of the Holy Spirit.." And it's because of His fragrance.. :) His sweet purfume.. I don't want to assume anything.. But on Saturday, it seems like I was able to feel the fragrance brought by the Spirit.. It was indeed sweet.. But a sweet I've never smelled before..
I dared not to share this things to anybody.. Since, I was afraid that it was just the work of my imagination.. But since my Bestfriend is such ajudgeless person.. (that judge not, i mean..) I dared to share it to him.. And I was really surprise.. God revealed him the same things! He saw the back army.. And God told him about the purfume.. Which I smelled during Saturday and I re-smelled on Sunday during the ministiring.. :)
Then I saw a battle.. One side was formed by an army.. A black army.. The other side.. I was not able to see what was formed of.. But in the upper part of this something.. There was a breathe of wind.. It was rosy.. Very sweet.. Calm and gentle.. I think it was the Holy Spirit.. And as He reached the other army.. Their black swords were made into pieces.. But the coolest thing here is that now I know why the Spirit is called sweet.. :) People used to say.. "..Sweet fellowship of the Holy Spirit.." And it's because of His fragrance.. :) His sweet purfume.. I don't want to assume anything.. But on Saturday, it seems like I was able to feel the fragrance brought by the Spirit.. It was indeed sweet.. But a sweet I've never smelled before..
I dared not to share this things to anybody.. Since, I was afraid that it was just the work of my imagination.. But since my Bestfriend is such a
CYN activities
It's been a while that I'm not posting in here.. I just learnt not to spend too much time in front the PC as my Bestfriend told me.. I don't know where to start.. But maybe I can recall what God did on Saturday during our YR and on Sunday during the PH..
YR - Awsome day! Ate Lorie told me that she had in mind to turn the service into a Prayer Meeting.. I joyfully agreed. I decided to share it with Israel and asked him if it would function.. After 15mins he approached me again saying that I should respond the Call.. I was scary.. I'm not really used on his serious face, which he always gives me lately.. :/ I begun to pray, I was doubting a bit, afraid in a way.. The he continued saying.. "I know God is raising warriors in the CYN, you should ask them.." And from that moment I begun to understand NOTHING! The time came.. Ate Lorie finished her teaching, I took the mic and begun to pray and worship.. And I don't actually remebered what I did.. I just remember the faces of those 4 humble people who came in front of the altar.. With selfless attitude approached the throne of God and begun to respond and embrace their call.. The number was so significant.. They were four.. The "Factastic Four"..
Two weeks before the YMT had a meeting and we ended up saying that this year the CYN will raise at least 4 WARRIORS plus me.. 5.
I am so happy, ecxited in a way for those people who responded the call of God.. This is not an easy task.. Matter of fact.. You should have the heart of intercession, or else.. You will never be effective in what you'll gonna do.. I am blessed to have them.. And I am commiting myself to help them to grow in this new level of service.. May God bless the Fantastic Four as they grow in the GRACE of our Lord Jesus, the greatest INTERCESSOR of all times! :)
PH - Praise God!!!! All glory to Him alone!!! Indeed God looks in the hearts of the people.. :)
I've been blessed with both the services.. Though in the morning there was something hindering the HS, which was confirmed by the preacher herself.. Matter of fact,the battle was indeed heavy.. I saw a lion holding the heel of a baby boy.. I begun to interceed the more.. The enemy was holding some of the people back from freedom.. But inspite of that.. The morning service went really good.. Though some misunderstanding that really pushed me down.. Not expecting those people to do such things.. :/
The afternoon service was even greater! PTL! The Presence of the Holy Spirit was indeed sovereing in that place.. I saw the same wind that I will talk about in the next post..
I am super blessed by my CYN family.. Indeed God is raising in us an UNSTOPPABLE GENERATION! :)
YR - Awsome day! Ate Lorie told me that she had in mind to turn the service into a Prayer Meeting.. I joyfully agreed. I decided to share it with Israel and asked him if it would function.. After 15mins he approached me again saying that I should respond the Call.. I was scary.. I'm not really used on his serious face, which he always gives me lately.. :/ I begun to pray, I was doubting a bit, afraid in a way.. The he continued saying.. "I know God is raising warriors in the CYN, you should ask them.." And from that moment I begun to understand NOTHING! The time came.. Ate Lorie finished her teaching, I took the mic and begun to pray and worship.. And I don't actually remebered what I did.. I just remember the faces of those 4 humble people who came in front of the altar.. With selfless attitude approached the throne of God and begun to respond and embrace their call.. The number was so significant.. They were four.. The "Factastic Four"..
Two weeks before the YMT had a meeting and we ended up saying that this year the CYN will raise at least 4 WARRIORS plus me.. 5.
I am so happy, ecxited in a way for those people who responded the call of God.. This is not an easy task.. Matter of fact.. You should have the heart of intercession, or else.. You will never be effective in what you'll gonna do.. I am blessed to have them.. And I am commiting myself to help them to grow in this new level of service.. May God bless the Fantastic Four as they grow in the GRACE of our Lord Jesus, the greatest INTERCESSOR of all times! :)
PH - Praise God!!!! All glory to Him alone!!! Indeed God looks in the hearts of the people.. :)
I've been blessed with both the services.. Though in the morning there was something hindering the HS, which was confirmed by the preacher herself.. Matter of fact,
The afternoon service was even greater! PTL! The Presence of the Holy Spirit was indeed sovereing in that place.. I saw the same wind that I will talk about in the next post..
I am super blessed by my CYN family.. Indeed God is raising in us an UNSTOPPABLE GENERATION! :)
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