I can't ask for more

The Lord is really good. I run out of words whenever I try to describe how really good is in my life!

Praise the Lord, always!

I'm back :)

It's been a while since last time... Time has passed so fast.. And things kept on happening one after the another. Thank God that inspite of everything He has been so close.. I can never thank Him enough for this months that has passed...

Drops of Prayers

"Walang panalangin na nasasayang..." my Ate would always say to me... I always believed that no prayers are invain, that regardless on how we feel, our current status, the Lord will always hear the prayer of our hearts. Therefore, no matter how awkward may seem to be talking to Someone that you don't actually see physically, I'm 100% sure that He hears. I've never been so confident this way since that time... A time so precious... 


Though I've been knowing the Lord at a young age and I started to know Him through Prayers, it came a point in my life in which I didn't know, or well, actually, I was not that sure if He was attentively hearing me because in the real world I did not see any effect. I felt like my prayers were going any where else, except to the throne of the Lord. Like they were bouncing back to me without reaching their destination. I struggled a lot. Especially when He pushed me on my knees and placed a heavy burden to pray for something very specific, yet without seeing any result of my kneeling. I was disapointed, and the Lord knew it very well. 


But a turning point came in my life that day... While praying, the Lord impressed in my heart the phrase my Ate always keeps on repeating me with faith. I believed that truth just by mind. Not by heart. By words. Not with all my inmost being. I was then half sure... I didn't understand fully the concept. While lost in Him, He suddenly showed me something. 
I saw like big drops of water, they were transparent enough for me to see what was inside it: my prayer. My prayer was encapsulated by this big circle, like a drop of water zoomed x100. I saw many of them ascending the throne of God... The Hevean was full of them... But guess what? That very time I saw my God catching my Drop of Prayer. :) Isn't it sweet from Him? I saw His hand holding my Prayer.


The Lord assured me His compleate trustworthyness. He assured me that He just not hears, but also holds my prayer in His hand. That if I cared for that Prayer, He cares even more. And finally that is never wasted... Because He will ever be catching every single drop of prayer that comes from my heart...


Pray with your heart... He will be catching your drop of prayer too... :)

The power of a praying woman

Do you know how it feels reading something in your Bible and reading actually what you need? You feel great, am I right? You feel like you're having butterflies in your stomach because you've prooved yourself that God is so sweet and gives you wht you really need. But how about not reading the Word of God but... Hearing it? :) That's way different! Hearing from the Lord what you actually needed to hear that exact tine... That's another thing.. That's humbling and honoring at the same time. It's... Sweeter!!! It's comforting... :) it' assuring! "Ask whatever you want in my Name" - Jesus These were the words He told me. I'm excited!!! His words to me are like a treasure... I've been reading this phrase in the Bible but I've never been thrilled the way I am now after hearing them coming from His mouth... That's why I also decided to read The power of a praying woman. His timing is so perfect... I've just finished Lazarus awakening and sooner I'll be blogging about it. Such a changing life book ;)

Please...

I can't contain the goodness of the Lord in my life... I can't help but to cry while I am writing this... So, to you who is reading this, please know that the Lord has never left you and never will. In whatever situation you may be in, please know that the Lord loves you too much to see you hurt and in pain, that's why please have patience and wait for Him, He is just in the buisness of turning your situation into your favor! Please know that He can use even people that don't know you to bless you, that He can use even those unthinkable things to make you feel loved! Please just wait... 


And if you are in need, though I may not know you... Let me help you in whatever ways, at the side of my blog you can see my FB account and my email address... In whatever way, please know that I want to help you... Because I myself I've experienced to be helped by someone that I don't even imagine this person would do... And, if you let me, I want to do the same with you...


For anything, I am really at your service...God loves you and I love you dearly!

"Hold Me Together"

words left unsaid

"True love isn't just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; but love is also expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid." - from J.H.'s IKDG


I don't know what was in JH's mind when he wrote this phrase but he really captured the meaning of Love with just few words, with actually the exact few words!
I have never understood fully this concept until God sent me 3 disturbing dreams that made me complain for a week. The Lord was asking me to do something specifically very hard and yet wanted me to pray for that person. It was unfair! Not until I realized that maybe He was just teaching me to love that person in the way He wanted me. Through prayer. Just through prayers... I didn't pray ofcourse, as hard headed I am... And honestly I am not. I am really trying to avoid that. I just don't want me to be distracted though I know this is very selfish from me when this person, no matter what, is constantly present when I need someone. But now lil by lil I am learning to pray for that person. Learning just to pray. Without expecting, without showing anything, without caring that much, without the things I used to do in short.


I kept myself so quite not even trying to fix things (which is a miracoulous things for me). I presented my self in a  professional way as much as I could. I tried to hide what's really going on in me. I tried to ignore everything and begun to accept things as they came. I kept myself silent though hurting and doubting. 
There were and are many questions rolling in my mind, too much "words left undaid."
I'm not telling that I'm good in loving. oh no... If there is somedoby really good in loving is just and only God.
I don't really know what I am feeling, this is so new. Maybe, I'm just glad that the Lord, the most expert One in love matters that I ever know, is personally teaching me how to love a person the way He wants me to love... 


A bit pressuring, a bit difficult. God's concept of love is so deep that sometimes the things that He wants me to do and say are so ungraspable. He makes me say and feel things that are hurting. And if somebody would tell me those things I would just burst out in to tears! 


*To you,
you accepted the challenge first, and pushed me to accpet it aswell knowing it will benefit us and many. I thank you now because you didn't give up on me to make me understand all those things. I owe you alot.
Accept my sorries thought you'll never know that I am, but I believe that the Lord will speak in your heart for me.
I just love you the way the Lord is teaching me to. I secretly love you. I love you in prayer. 

Sukdulan Biyaya

"Sa panahon na tayo ay mabaho, sa panahon na tayo ay palpak, sa panahon na tayo ay marumi at walang nagmamahal natutunan tayong yakapin at halikan ng pa-ulit ulit ng Dios Amang nag mamahal sa bawat isa sa atin."

Lazarus Awakening

Have you ever felt like no body appreciates you? Or better like the people that you expect to love, they seem not to love you? Like the people you hoped they cared, they seem not to...?
You believe that God loves the world… But sometimes you wonder if He truly loves you.


Alright! I had this burden in my heart, and I don't deny to still having it. This was the thing that God wanted me to deal with, and I am still dealing with it. Two weeks ago I really felt this strong burden, that no body really loves and cares for me. The people I hoped that they would do, seemed so indifferent and doing the exact opposite thing. I was in distress. I remember one Saturday, I was eating my lunch, and right there, I tried to hide my tears from Ma because I really felt unloved. After eating I ran to my room and cried in pain to the Lord asking to take away that burden. The more I was asking to take it away, the more my heart was getting heavier. 
But there I have been reminded of His great Love, that if I would try to define and describe it I would lessen its very essence and I would just terribly fail. 


God led me to read the book I bought when I was in Canada. Its title is "Lazarus Awakening". And thank God, He spoke through the story of the dead man, yet the man Jesus loves the most!


 For many of us, moving the truth of God’s love from our heads to our hearts is a lifelong process. As we consider our inadequacies or grieve our shattered dreams, we find it difficult to believe that God cares for us personally. 


Jesus loves you apart from anything you accomplish, apart from anything you bring. Just as He called Lazarus forth to new life, Jesus wants to free you to live fully in the light of His love, unbound from the graveclothes of fear, regret, and self-condemnation. 

Hei, you... LOVE is calling your name :)

Sincere thanks, Lord for being always here... I owe You alot. :(

agent Bartowski

Lately I'm so in with this teleserie. It is actually my bestfriend's fault. He kept on talking about that long time ago and just because during this days I'm home doing nothing, I decided to give a try to this teleserie. I am now watching Season 3 and I just started last week! Yes! I became addicted to this. You should try it! This is one of the best teleserie I ever watched. Chuck Bartowski is the title.


Chuck Bartowski works at the Buy More, a simple guy but very special: he is the Intersect (he has all CIA's secrets in his mind) and because of that he is protected by agent Casey and Sarah. Sarah's covarage was Chuck's girlfriend. They, in short faked a relationship in order for them to protect Chuck the more. To make believe others they acted as a real couple; but... Chuck and Sarah really fel inlove. Something started quite as a game ended in something deep and serious. Work binded them, but more than that there were feelings and love. As Chuck grew and became expert controlling the intersect the CIA begun to train him as a real spy.
And the story goes on...


Chuck and Sarah's love story. I want to focus on this. 
Eventually they had loved and grew feeling for each other. But as most of the time they reminded each other that was just a coverage, that in reality they are just co-workers and there was nothing between them but work alone. Feelings kept mixing with the work and most of the time the work itself paid for that. There was an instance in which Sarah proposed Chuck to ran away and start a new life, their life together, but Chuck denied thinking of what the Itersect could do for many people. And they just kept on going and doing their works ignoring their feelings as they keep always reminding themselves that "a true spy does not fall in love".


Sometimes, many times we are led to desicions between something you really want and like and love and ever desired and something you know it's good for others and you know that it's your very call. 
Therefore feelings are telling you some things, you reason other things. What to choose? You don't know. You try to compromise, to give some justifications. But nothing. It's confused more than before!


We as Christians are always led to choose God's very will, which is in contrast most of the time with the things "you really want and like and love and ever desired". That's why, after seeking God's will, you still choose to do what is the best for you though you don't really like it. Though sometimes there is nothing to do with you, though it will just hurt you and cause you pain. But you still courageously take that path because you know that it will lead you toward everlasting rewards... You choose to obey to His voice, with your eyes closed. 
And as you keep your journey, there are points in your life that makes you think. Why am I making everything so difficult for me? When actually I can follow what I really want.


I've been crying to the Lord lately. I kept myself in silence and let my heart speak before Him asking these things. Asking why I can't be just for a second weak, just for a second do what I really want, just for a second stop and forget my responsability and enjoy my life as every twenty years old girls do!? 
And right there, I've been reminded of my purpose. I've been reminded of my dreams for the Ministry of God, I've been reminded that true life is found when you lose it! That one day I and you will be reaping all the pain and everything and say "It was worth it". That if I seek first Him everything will be added. That I can never out give Him. That He loves me. And that I love Him too.


Truth is that we don't need any other reason, any other purpose, any other inspiration because His love is inspiring enough, is a sufficient reason and a valid purpose to follow the call of our lives and simply obey Him.

changes challenges opportunities

I keep on thinking all over again about that... I can't deny the fact that I am worrying but I am giving everything to the Lord... This is another step on the water. A step of faith toward God's perfect will.
Will I be ever able? Am I the one for that? Do I fit for that? I don't know. I am not able!
Questions of doubt mixed with answers full of fear.


Lord, take me wherever I will please and honor you the most! Give us strength to do Your will, as we follow every single instruction and submit to the lead of the Holy Spirit. 


BE GLORIFIED, this is the prayer of our hearts...

Home Visit

Thank you for visiting me at home... You surely are the extension of God's tender love... :)

bronchitis

Just got home from the Hospital. This morning as I woke up I blew out blood. Ofcourse Mama and everyone were panicing - I might understand them, because it was the second time. We ran to the Hospital and, thank God, they assisted me quickly. The doctor found that I got bronchitis!


I won't be able to go to church today I guess.. Mama doesn't want me to... I'll surely miss the CYN!
Thanks to my lovely Friends for the tender care..

THANK YOU LORD!!!! :)