finalmente chiami

Aspettavo da tanto la tua chiamata. Grazie per averlo fatto! Sei una benedizione!!!! :)
Ringrazio il Signore per la vita di coloro che usa per benedire me e la mia famiglia. Lui ci ha sempre guardati da lassù con occhio a nostro favore, ha sempre tifato per noi e molto spesso ho visto la Sua Mano modificare le circostanze a nostro vantaggio. 
2013: l'anno dei FAVORI! :)

How He loves us

"A woman should learn in quietness and full submission" - 1 Tim 2:11

just the nude nail polish

My girlfriends know how much I love nail polishes. I got almost every shade of colors, name it! I love doing my nails, taking care of them and do manicure to everyone, and if there is something I can't live without is a manicure set and of course nail polishes!
Until one time the Lord spoke so clearly... He broke my heart when He started to say that I had to use form that time on just the nude nail polish. My first thougth went to the other poor nail polishes that I would not use anymore: how about them? Will I have to give them up? That was tragedy!! 
Papà explained Himself saying He does not like me seeing standing on the stage with colors on my nails. I've never understood Him and He knows that. But inspite of my love for nail polishes, I gave in what He was telling me to do.
Now, it's almost a year I'm not having colored nails. Sometimes, when my girl friends sleep over at my place and we begin to nail polish, I always look at them with an envious eye. Until now I'm tempted to compromise, trying to make some excuses just to do what I want to do. But there is always a voice saying that I can't disapoint Him in this very little thing. That's why I always end up picking the nude one.
Behind my nail polish thingy there is a big story to learn. Maybe a vital lesson. You know, the Lord is interested in every aspect of our lives. He wants to be part of us. From the silliest desicion you have to make to the biggest desicion that will make your life. When He says that He cares for us, He means that He cares about the colors of your nails as much as He cares for your toughest problem. He simply cares. And He simply wants to be involved in every desicion we take. His opinion is important.
His opinion matters more than what we want. His concerns in our lives have the highest priority. Following faithfully His every instruction  must be our life style.

This is the story behind my nails, it's silly and most of the time non-sense, but believe me, because He trained me with this, giving up on what I want it's not a big deal anymore. It still hurts sometimes, but I joyfully give up what He asks. Now you know why I always wear nude nail polish: it's me reminding myself that He cares! :) 

Let's do some manicureeee!!! :D

Unspoken desire

This week someone asked me what I love to do... I remained silent, I had 1 minute of awkwardness inside my heart and mind.. Thinking what I really love to do... I randomly said that I love to eat. What a stupid answer... The person asked me again, what do you love to do... I said to travel... Just to say something.

That was so embarassing. I didn't know myself. That's the hardest thing. Not knowing what you really love and actually who you are... But I meditated on that... Now I know what to answer... If somebody will ever ask me again what do I love to do, I will proudly say... I love to write. 

I've never admitted to myself.. I just discovered that I'd love and desire to write a book one day... 

Lei

Lei mi conosce e io conosco lei. Lei  mi accetta e guarda oltre le mie debolezze; sempre. Lei è fantastica: lascia tutto ciò che fa per me. Lei non è mai troppo occupata, ne mai troppo stanca per me: le chiedo di andare in giro insieme, lei accetta subito. Lei mi presta sempre una spalla su cui piangere. Lei c'è sempre, è presente in ogni istante della mia vita anche se spesso non la voglio includere, ma lei c'è. Con lei posso finalmente parlare di tutto e di più: dei miei segreti, delle mie perplessità, delle mie scemenze. Non ho paura di aprirmi con lei, perchè lei non mi giudica. Lei mi ama. Lei prega sempre per me, ed un giorno voglio diventare proprio come lei. Lei è la mia forza. Lei è il mio sorriso. 

Io e lei siamo legate. Legate da una forte relazione. Lei è Mamma. :)

Io voglio bene a LEI

Sorelle, sorelline, sorellone, fratelloni, fratelli, amici

Non sto a nominarli uno ad uno.. La lista sarebbe troppo lunga... Ma un grazie va a tutti coloro i quali sono stati vicini a me tutto il 2012... Tutto sarebbe stato diverso senza la loro presenza. Le loro vite sono state fondamentali lungo il mio percorso: persone che mi hanno voluta bene nonostante tutto, persone che mi hanno accettata per quello che sono, persone che mi hanno insegnato nuove cose, persone che mi hanno dato una pacca sulla spalla quando proprio non ce la facevo più, persone che mi hanno incoraggiata fino alla fine, persone che non hanno mai smesso di pregare per me, persone che mi hanno sostenuta nei momenti più difficile.. Solo Papà avrebbe potuto darmi delle persone per le quali gli sono grata e per sempre lo sarò. 

VI AMO!

2012

Solo ora me ne sto rendendo conto... Quant'è difficile iniziare quando hai tante cose da dire e non sai da dove cominciare...

Inizio dicendo che l'anno scorso (2012), nonostante tutto, sia stato uno dei miei migliori anni... Ho imparato a vivere, a sorridere, a ridere a crepapelle, a divertirmi con niente e ad assumere un atteggiamento di speranza nei confronti dei problemi quotidiani. E' bello vivere. Credimi. Detto poi da una come me... Che ne ha passate di cotte e di crude. Ho trovato finalmente la forza di sorridere a tutto ciò che mi accade, non dico di essere felice 24/7, anzi, no, perchè spesso alterno fasi depressive e di gioia immensa, (si, sono poco stabile e molto fragile)... Ma è questa instabilità e questa fragilità che mi spingono di più ad avvicinarmi a Colui il quale mi provvede il sorriso nel cuore... Ed è questo che ho imparato... Non ho bisogno delle soluzione ai miei problemi, non ho bisogno di risposte... Ho solo bisogno di Lui punto

I can't ask for more

The Lord is really good. I run out of words whenever I try to describe how really good is in my life!

Praise the Lord, always!

I'm back :)

It's been a while since last time... Time has passed so fast.. And things kept on happening one after the another. Thank God that inspite of everything He has been so close.. I can never thank Him enough for this months that has passed...

Drops of Prayers

"Walang panalangin na nasasayang..." my Ate would always say to me... I always believed that no prayers are invain, that regardless on how we feel, our current status, the Lord will always hear the prayer of our hearts. Therefore, no matter how awkward may seem to be talking to Someone that you don't actually see physically, I'm 100% sure that He hears. I've never been so confident this way since that time... A time so precious... 


Though I've been knowing the Lord at a young age and I started to know Him through Prayers, it came a point in my life in which I didn't know, or well, actually, I was not that sure if He was attentively hearing me because in the real world I did not see any effect. I felt like my prayers were going any where else, except to the throne of the Lord. Like they were bouncing back to me without reaching their destination. I struggled a lot. Especially when He pushed me on my knees and placed a heavy burden to pray for something very specific, yet without seeing any result of my kneeling. I was disapointed, and the Lord knew it very well. 


But a turning point came in my life that day... While praying, the Lord impressed in my heart the phrase my Ate always keeps on repeating me with faith. I believed that truth just by mind. Not by heart. By words. Not with all my inmost being. I was then half sure... I didn't understand fully the concept. While lost in Him, He suddenly showed me something. 
I saw like big drops of water, they were transparent enough for me to see what was inside it: my prayer. My prayer was encapsulated by this big circle, like a drop of water zoomed x100. I saw many of them ascending the throne of God... The Hevean was full of them... But guess what? That very time I saw my God catching my Drop of Prayer. :) Isn't it sweet from Him? I saw His hand holding my Prayer.


The Lord assured me His compleate trustworthyness. He assured me that He just not hears, but also holds my prayer in His hand. That if I cared for that Prayer, He cares even more. And finally that is never wasted... Because He will ever be catching every single drop of prayer that comes from my heart...


Pray with your heart... He will be catching your drop of prayer too... :)

The power of a praying woman

Do you know how it feels reading something in your Bible and reading actually what you need? You feel great, am I right? You feel like you're having butterflies in your stomach because you've prooved yourself that God is so sweet and gives you wht you really need. But how about not reading the Word of God but... Hearing it? :) That's way different! Hearing from the Lord what you actually needed to hear that exact tine... That's another thing.. That's humbling and honoring at the same time. It's... Sweeter!!! It's comforting... :) it' assuring! "Ask whatever you want in my Name" - Jesus These were the words He told me. I'm excited!!! His words to me are like a treasure... I've been reading this phrase in the Bible but I've never been thrilled the way I am now after hearing them coming from His mouth... That's why I also decided to read The power of a praying woman. His timing is so perfect... I've just finished Lazarus awakening and sooner I'll be blogging about it. Such a changing life book ;)

Please...

I can't contain the goodness of the Lord in my life... I can't help but to cry while I am writing this... So, to you who is reading this, please know that the Lord has never left you and never will. In whatever situation you may be in, please know that the Lord loves you too much to see you hurt and in pain, that's why please have patience and wait for Him, He is just in the buisness of turning your situation into your favor! Please know that He can use even people that don't know you to bless you, that He can use even those unthinkable things to make you feel loved! Please just wait... 


And if you are in need, though I may not know you... Let me help you in whatever ways, at the side of my blog you can see my FB account and my email address... In whatever way, please know that I want to help you... Because I myself I've experienced to be helped by someone that I don't even imagine this person would do... And, if you let me, I want to do the same with you...


For anything, I am really at your service...God loves you and I love you dearly!

"Hold Me Together"

words left unsaid

"True love isn't just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; but love is also expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid." - from J.H.'s IKDG


I don't know what was in JH's mind when he wrote this phrase but he really captured the meaning of Love with just few words, with actually the exact few words!
I have never understood fully this concept until God sent me 3 disturbing dreams that made me complain for a week. The Lord was asking me to do something specifically very hard and yet wanted me to pray for that person. It was unfair! Not until I realized that maybe He was just teaching me to love that person in the way He wanted me. Through prayer. Just through prayers... I didn't pray ofcourse, as hard headed I am... And honestly I am not. I am really trying to avoid that. I just don't want me to be distracted though I know this is very selfish from me when this person, no matter what, is constantly present when I need someone. But now lil by lil I am learning to pray for that person. Learning just to pray. Without expecting, without showing anything, without caring that much, without the things I used to do in short.


I kept myself so quite not even trying to fix things (which is a miracoulous things for me). I presented my self in a  professional way as much as I could. I tried to hide what's really going on in me. I tried to ignore everything and begun to accept things as they came. I kept myself silent though hurting and doubting. 
There were and are many questions rolling in my mind, too much "words left undaid."
I'm not telling that I'm good in loving. oh no... If there is somedoby really good in loving is just and only God.
I don't really know what I am feeling, this is so new. Maybe, I'm just glad that the Lord, the most expert One in love matters that I ever know, is personally teaching me how to love a person the way He wants me to love... 


A bit pressuring, a bit difficult. God's concept of love is so deep that sometimes the things that He wants me to do and say are so ungraspable. He makes me say and feel things that are hurting. And if somebody would tell me those things I would just burst out in to tears! 


*To you,
you accepted the challenge first, and pushed me to accpet it aswell knowing it will benefit us and many. I thank you now because you didn't give up on me to make me understand all those things. I owe you alot.
Accept my sorries thought you'll never know that I am, but I believe that the Lord will speak in your heart for me.
I just love you the way the Lord is teaching me to. I secretly love you. I love you in prayer.