I always ask myself if I can live a different life from the one I am living now, if only I could take the desicions that I want, if only I could command and dictate my own rules.
When I got to think that Papà is a bit strick with me, I often cry. I often cry to Him, asking why is He being so selective when it comes to the nailpolish on my nails (nude color is His only favourite on my finger), to the dresses I have to wear (He doesn't like me when I wear short and sleeveless except when we go to swin), to the music I have to listen (He doesn't want me to listen to wordly music), to the attitude toward guys (He is a jelous Dad, until He does not give me the right one, my heart and eyes are only His - this is the reason why i act "antipatica" to guys sometimes), to the crossing of street (when it's red I am required to stop and wait for green though there are no cars around).
I sometimes don't understand Him.. But eventually I find myself playing according to His rules. It has been years the Lord is training me. Little did I know, that beyond all those things He was teaching me how to become faithful.
Just yesterday He whispered in my ears "Stay faithful to the process.." - those Words definitely changed my heart and my mind. Truth be told, I was risking to do things by my own, careless of His opinion. He led me to a deep meditation about faithfulness, that I can barely put into words.
Faithful is one of the best adjective that can be used to describe a person.
A faithful person is faithful even though no body sees him - he remains the same.
A faithful person does not need a reward in the end - remember Daniel 3?
A faithful person is a person full of faith in God's Words - he would do every single instruction.
When I will be gone from the world, I don't want to be remember as a person who preached the word of God, I don't want to be remembered for my victory or any other thing I once did, or for being used by God.
I want to be simply remembered as one who faithfully loved God.
I want to be faithful to my God from the smallest to the biggest things in my life. From the color of my nails, to the way I act toward guys, and so on.
Faithfulness matters to Him.
Faithful will be one of the sweetest words He will welcome people with to His Kingdom. He does not require anointing, He does not need talent.
He simply loves faithfulness.
And as His Bride, my deepest loning is to love Him faithfully. That I may be able in my little ways to offer Him a faithful Love. A love that can't exchange Him for anything the world could offer. That I may walk faithfully in His ways, as I take little small faithful steps everyday.
Faithfulness to somebody. One of the most eveident proofs that the person you are being faithful to is more faithful and loves you more.
There is no doubt: I'm talking about Him, He who loves me faithfully more and always. Mio Papà.
