Blind Date

Last Sunday I've been asked by the Y-AM to go out with them and chill at Mcdonals. The fact that the circle of people were Y-AMs made me think twice. Didn't give any answer at first but in the end I found myself sitting with them with my Big Tasty Menu. After eating we did an activity: we made it possible that we would talk to everyone one by one. I had the chance to meet new people and talking to some old CYN Friends. 
My last talk was the blind date I was running from. My kuya was my last blind date. 
We sat. He asked me how I was doing. And without thinking twice he looked in my eyes and asked me that thing. My heart beat stopped for two seconds. I was surprised. Never imagined that he cares that much, especially for that aspect of my life. I could not help but to cry, while everybody were enjoying and laughing around. I needed that talk. I needed to hear those words. 

And today I am happy for him.. Kuya Eis got to pass his driving exams. This means long drive journey!!! :)

Amo essere Donna

Recentemente ho guardato Pitch Perfect.. Ed ho imparato una cosa sola: 

quando le donne ci si mettono di impegno e si coalizzano... BOOM!

Mi ero completamente dimenticata di come ci si sente...

Mi batte il cuore. Forse perchè dopo tanto tempo non sentivo questo. Ci si sente così quando il ragazzo, quel ragazzo intendo, ti chiede di uscire? Muoio. Ora. *.*

What Love is This - Kari Jobe - Where I Find You

what happens under the shower

Taking a shower is one of my favourite things to do, mainly because Papà speaks to me. The atmosphere is perfect: loud christian music on my ipad, heater at the maximum level and the-must-super-hot-water for winter times.
Last Friday I took a bath and "Set a Fire" was playing on my ipad. As soon as I approached the bath and grabbed the shower tube to mix the hot with the cold water, the Lord begin to speak to me. 
I let Him talk to my heart. He begin with, "Monica, do not pursue man." In reply I told Him, "Yes, sure, after all I am the girl." 
Little did I know He was not talking really about that. He wanted to me to understand something deeper and reveal what happened in the Garden of Eden when Adam first met Eve...
He showed me three kind of ways that a couple could go through to meet. 

First, is woman pursing man. This is the worst of the three. Girls are not meant to be initiator of a relationship. They have NOT to pursue it. They are meant to just "sit and be beautiful". Man has to initiate and Woman has to respond. Just respond. This is a bit hard thing to do for girls: we just can't sit and be beautiful all the time, we just can't be still and watching at things, we girls must do something always. But biblically, women never initiated a relationship. 
Sad to say, now a days, many girls forget that they are the most beautiful when they just sit and wait for the perfect one, that's why they rush and pursue man. By doing this they are neglecting to themselves the priviledge to choose and say "yes" or "no".

Second, is man pursing man. They say that this is the most "kilig" of all. Man is the one courting woman. He loves her, that's why he prays for her and most of all he asks God for her hand. Every gilrs' dream, I'd say. Dad holds the girl in His hands. The girl is the King's princess and any suitor MUST first talk to her Dad, the King and ask His permission and blessing. 
I always salute those Man with capital M that respects the Father's approval. I admire them for their praying and courageous heart. They are few, but they exsist. Their love for the Princess drives them to be commited to the King and pray for His approval. By doing this they will not just eventually get the Princess'hand, but they will also get closer with the King, which is the very purpose of everything we do: to know Him more.

Third, is nobody is pursing nobody. This happens when both the boy and the girl are IN their priorities of their indivudual life and someday, when God is pleased, they will MEET, and not pursue, somewhere. 
This is the story of the First Love Story in the Bible, when Adam first met Eve. God created everything and on the sixth day He gave life to Adam. Adam was enjoying. He was apparantely happy, beacuse God saw his need to have someone that could help him. And then, we all know the story.. God made Him fall asleep and out of his rib God created the First Woman, Eve. 
This is the best way of the three for a boy and a girl to meet. It is God Himself moving and planning everything for the couple to meet while they are busy doing their stuffs. It will be God, who sees the very need of the man, bringing him the perfect girl.  It is effortless from the both parties. It is as natural as all the beautiful things. They happen not because someone pushed it, not even because someone has worked for it, but simply because GOD WANTED IT. 
This requires focus and determination. It requires to be crazy in love with Dad and full trust to His higher ways. This is my fave. And isn't easy. But worth it. It happened with Adam and Eve and it can happen also to you and me. 

Those 15 minutes under the shower changed my prespective about courtship. I am so sure that He told me what lied behind Adam and Eve's love story, because He intends to surprise everyone with the best love story. But most of all because He wanted to remind me that He is still the BEST love stories Writer ever, so why don't give Him the pen?