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SINGAPORE :)

Molino Dorino

Today is my last day here in Milan. And today I took my Passport again. Hays! Praise God though. Indeed He looks on His children with favor! :D


After that I went to Cadorna to meet my Bestfriend. Huh. I wanted to give him my best regards personally so I took him to Molino Dorino where he would have met Tabita for their practices. 


But before the story goes, I want to acknowledge God. For giving us this opportunity to meet, despite our super busy schedules!


As usual, the talkative Monica went silent mode in his presence. The first minutes I just kept silent. But I couldn't help but to cry and lean my head upon his chest.. And.. 


.................. And the rest is history :')
Surely treasured! 

Christmas is cancelled | the concert in 3D

Gloria in excelsis Deo!!!!
Our Christmas concert was a blast!!! I wanna thank the Almighty for the lives of my coo-PAs, specially Rachel and Clarisse. I worked with extraordinary people. People that has the passion to serve God and our generation!!! I get inspired by them! The way they were so prepared, the way they were so eager for the smoothness of the concert! AHHHH! Awsome!!


They really own that so called heart of a servant. Therfore, I see great Leaders in them! Indeed  you  must serve before you lead! :)


May our Lord bless these rising Leaders! 


But. Here is the but! :P
Before the blast of the night, I went through a storm. Praise God for the life of my Bestfriend, that though lately we are busy with our own lives, he prooves himself always ready to help and sustain me no matter what. 
Forever I am thankfull to God for his life, he may not know how much I am cos sometimes I am giving him the worst side of me, but despite that, he is there. A phone-call away. A txt away. A prayer away! 


I took him to Brico to buy the last things for the concert since it was near home. He knew what I needed indeed! After weeks we had not talk much, he was there, waiting me at the cashier.. Wearing his best and sweetest smile.. :) It gave me hope. It gave me strength and most of all I felt protected. (I never imagined that a smile could produce such effect!)


I want to thank God for my Bestfriend's prayer. Indeed God heard him. :)

i'll be missing you...

see you next year. sadness.

Oh no.

passport. what an epic fail.

Thank you soooooooo much.

my bestfriend is the best besfriend ever lived on earth.

Intercession

Last week with some of the CYN girls I was talking about people that decides to put an end to their lives by jumping at the metro.


Tonight as we were going home we saw someone at the top of a tower in Bisceglie metro. Among them I was the only one who really wanted to see it closer. I wanted to go to that side and live it in first person the happening. They followed me as I was running.. Running and interceeding for that person. 


I feel sorry for being not able to do anything practically. All I could do that moment was to interceed and pray for him. It was sadly late so we had to go and took our train though I really wanted to stay.


As I was walking from BandeNere to Home, my heart couldn't stop but to pray for him. I believe that my God is far greater than any negative thoughts that the enemy was injecting him. I believe that my small prayer and faith were able to move the Hands of the Almighty and touch his heart.


I love interceeding for the needy :) 
Thank You for this call, Lord.. 

a big question mark

"What does maturity mean, Lord?" :)


December. Christmas Season for the whole world. For Monica's world is MATURING season.
It scares me a bit. I don't really know what does it mean. I don't even know how could I get into it.
Is it a finish line or a life-long process? Is it that you mature today, and forever you will be matured? Or is it a state of the heart, mind, soul, how you look on things and so on?


I don't know. But as someone always says.. I don't need to know everything.
I just realized lately that unless not you will act as a matured person you will never be like one.


I consider myself as an immatured person. That's why God is calling me to be so. And He is definitly correct! I'm amost 20! :O As I'm under this maturing process He is asking me to leave things in His hands. *Ohhh, I love to picture that scenario.. God taking care of my things :')* Anyways as I was writing.. He is letting me totally to be focused. I am amaze by His works in my life.. How He patientlly change me form glory to glory til I don't get His very likeness. How He is making beautiful everything in its time! And how He is sustaning me with His power.

My God is great. ;) And and we match alot. His power is made perfect in my weaknesses. :)

toward maturity

I thank GOD for every single day :) Though I really want that things were different, yet I am apreciating everything. I apreciate His love in the morning, His grace that keeps me going and His provision that makes me lack nothing! I enjoy the gift of singleness, I do. And I enjoy praying for the right person in my life. Actually I am not anymore concerned about this. All I believe is that God has the BEST for me. And I know, as I follow His lead in this walk on waters I will be able to reach that place. No worries. No doubts. No fears. I am full of confidence in Him. I trust and my hope is found in Him. Because "Fear has nothing to do with Love." - I.M. :)


I'm now 19. Turning 20 next year. I should start to think about what would I be within 5 years from now. It's time to stand on my feet. To think about how would be my life without parents. It's time to think to feed my stomach with what I would be earning with my own work. It's time to think to save money for my future family. To get a license. To get my home. But before this all.. To absolutely go for an all-around-world tour!  :P
It's time to be serious now. It's time to set the priorities of life again. And be hypotized by them! :)


This all happens because.. When you pause for a while.. Reflect and think.. You will suddenly realize that few things really matter in life.. And those little and few things are really worth living.. :)

Updating my blog through Lady Xperia :)

it's seriously hard.

after 4 months

holding my PASSPORT in my hands.

finally :)

my pride

The fact that I am surrounded with cool and irreplaceable people makes me hyper!

They are my pride. Specially when they excell. :)

My bestfriend is really good. I don't really know how he is able to shoulder me. Believe me, when I become stressfull, I'm unreachable! He is indeed gifted with a big and kind heart. With a deep understanding and a wide patience. And what I love the most about him is his sensitivity to the Will of God. And how he stands on God's call. 

He inspires. His life and his way of living encourage not just me, but hundreds of people of every ages. His passion is like contagious :)

I'm glad of what God is doing in his life.. :) He is blooming!!! (Maybe he is using Likas Papaya, or Nivea Cream.. Hmm?!) LOL :O 
And I guess, inlove. He is crazy inlove with God!!! :D And I take pride on this.. :) 

He is actually my pride.. 

You are my delight

What God is doing now in my life is priceless!!!


Nothing can ever compare with His marvellous deeds. Nor the so good-feeling care of him. Nor his sweet words. :) God's Love is more than enough. (But please don't get me wrong.. :P I enjoy the feeling anyways). It is just like I am compleate with His Love. I am now learning to find my Joy in Him alone, not depending on what I see. Cos what I see is just temporary, while His things are eternal :)


I chose to trust Him. This walk on water of mine is actually a journey of trust.. I'm leaving my fears behind as I take each day a step of faith.. I am so thrilled.. I am so excited and I am enjoying everything. Even storms. :)

I assure you that what God is asking me to do is not a merly joke. He is asking a big piece of me: my trust, to give up on my desires and wants, not to worry, not to look on situation and so on. It costs me alot. The price is particularly high! But with a submissive, sometimes complaning heart (I'm just a human being after all) I submitt to His plan. 

My will bows before His.

He is the strength inside of me. His Love is the fuel, His powerful Grace is my shield and His thoughts are my goal :) 

"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart."

- Proverbs 37:4

He is my delight! I delight in His way.. So true what my G12 book says about doing the will of God.. Once you get to do His will, God will incline your heart toward it and unknowingly you will soon start to like it, till it comes a lifestyle.

This song is my song.. :) With Magnificent they do a great tandem. It sings about Jesus' beauty, awsomeness..

It minister me alot. Every time I think about His very nature it humbles me on my knees, makes me forget about my problems, trials and struggles I am going through.

My hope is then lifted, my fears are wiped away and replaced with unspeakable Joy and my soul is restored as I am totally lost in His perfect Love!!!

My God is great and there is no doubt about it.. He is beautiful beyond desciprtion.. :)

sa'yo.

and OHH! How can I forget to thank my Bestfriend..

SALAMAT sa..

paguunawa, pagtyatyaga, pagtititis, pagkikinig, pagalalaha, pagpapanalangin, pagibig, pagtitiwala, pagtulong, pagtawag, pagging matatag para sa akin, pagnanais ng akin kabutihan...

buong puso.. SALAMAT.

2nd chapter - EYES.

His goodness makes me wanna shout Halleluja!!! His mercy makes me wanna shout PRAISE the LORD!!!
I can't contain His goodness! His love!!! His perfect way and plan in my life!!! He is soooo AWSOME! Though I'm not even a bit worthy of all this.. Still, His love covers up everything! Still, His mercy is running like a river in my life!! When I say that God is alive, believe me, HE IS DEFO! He is not simply alive, He DOES miracles!!! I owe Him everything. I owe Him my life.. I owe Him my heart.. 
This is it.. I'm taking my SECOND STEP in this walk of mine. My walk on waters with Him :) This would be the second chapert of my wanna be book huh? :D 


This time He is asking my heart.. :) my eyes actually! He wants me to be focused totally on Him alone. He just removed everything that would cause my fall. And He is awsome. I thought allowing Him to remove those things was unfair for me. I didn't as usual understand anything! Slow Monica! But His loving patience made me understand. I see the big picture now.. :) I see the rainbow after the stormy day! I see the sunrise after a dark night!!! 


His mercy is calling me to give my eyes to Him.. And I can't refuse. I can't resist Him.
These eyes are His.


I may be misfocused ten, hundred, million, billion, trillion times. But surely He will find the way for me to get to the right. Surely He will make everything to catch my eyes' attention, again. And all over again!!!


It is my prayer that He may find me always on my knees as I take my journey with Him. LORD, I CAN'T KEEP MY EYES OFF YOU!!!

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

Heb 12:2

I'M SO LOVING MY WALK ON WATERS!!! :)

GOD is so GOOD!!!

*teary eyes*

my first manna: a mama - L.M. ♥

Yestarday I had a heart to heart talk to with one of the most wondefrul inside and out person that I know. She is a very strong and prayerfull woman, an inspiring servant of God that I admire and salute alot! :)


She is my Bestfriend's Mother. She is one of my mannas. A blessing indeed!
I never wanted to talked to her.*Maaaan, what would I say?* It is actually my bestfriend who suggested me to talk to her. And so I did. 


It was after she preached in Bisceglie II. I knocked the door, got in and hugged her. A tear fell as I was embracing her. She made me sit and she smiled at me. 
She spoke words of wisdom over me.. We had a very sweet, simple yet sincere talk.. She is great and so understanding. I really saw her care, heart and concern in it!!
I was at ease as we were talking and honestly a bit surprised when she started to tell kinda personal things.
I was really challenged by her.. Inspired to PRAY, PRAY and PRAY. 
All times. Costantly. Without ceasing. :)
*Oooh, I can't number how many times she used that word in our convo :)*
We talked about everything actually.. From the reason why I came to her, to Kuya Eis and my trip to Pinas. She's the ideal person to talk with! And she made my day :D


Everything is treasured. All keeped in my heart. Her advices, her smiles..

"I may not be a sweet or showy Mom like others, cos my children are boys, but I am always here. Don't be afraid to aproach me." - L.M. 

♥♥♥

my honor is to obey You

If I have to describe my last week I would use the phrase: GOD IS IN CONTROL! :)


Yes! He is. I really can't doubt about this.. He is simply all-knowing, that even the numbers of our hairs are counted! :D Amazing God I have!
It's growing time for me and my Bestfriend. It's rather, MATURING time. I thought that I was matured enough to handle things, that I had enough strength to get things alright. But as King Solomon says in Proverbs 3:5-6,

"Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowlegde Him, and He will direct your path."

And I am currently trusting the Lord with all my heart. Leaning not on my own understading and submitting to Him, in order for God to trully move. I want to see His perfect ways! I want to see Him having His way in me. I want to see how He moves and directs!

I may not understand what He is doing. I may not understand perfectly His Will. I may not like what He wants me to do, still.. Obeying Him is one of the highest priviledge that I have.. And as time goes on.. I have to admit that I'm liking it! Though sometimes it means that I have to deny myself and give up my hopes and dreams, still there's no such joy in following His lead. Cos, trully. Where He leads, He provides! I am experiencing actually Manna from heaven.. Yes! He is providing the strength. He is providing the joy. He is providing people that will encourage me!!! AAAAAHH!! I can't ask for more!!!

Surely as Ptr. Erwel said.. "Walang kalugihan sumunod sa Dyos!

I WANT TO WRITE A BOOK :)

apology

It's been a while that I'm not posting in here. All bacause my PC was not protected enough. I had to renew my Norton contract by installing a new program. I wasn't able to do that during last week cos I was too lazy. I and high-tech things are not that friends. Duh.


I just finished to install Norton and now is going alright! :) And do you know what does that means?
BLOG BLOG BLOG BLOG!!! :D finally.