"Everyone is called to the path on leadership. But few are able to balze that path..."

I want to blaze it!!!

i do

Do you know the feeling of being loved sincerly? Of being protected? And how about the feeling when someone is praying the best in your life? And the thought that you can always, anytime and anywhere count on someone?


Well... I DO. 

ingredients

Yellow umbrella. Rainy night. Bande Nere. Tree. Sincere words. New beginning. 23:00 something. Tears and smiles. Stronger relationship. Amazing GOD!

These are the ingredients for the perfect night and talk! ALL THINGS ARE TREASURED AND FOREVER I WILL REMEMBER!

fruit salad

I woke up this morning with the intention not to go to church beacuse my foot hurted fearking bad.. But I suddendly found myself under the shower and preparing my stuffs to go to church.. I was indeed in trouble when I headed church but I was confident in one thing: surely He is able to heal my hurting foot! With joy I arrived at church though I was 15mins late.. Duh. Tita Rita preached a sincere and simple yet powerfull message and during the ministiring I recived an instant healing.. After the service I walked to test my foot and I tell you.. The pain was gone! Praise God!!! :D I had my lunch all alone, well actually I was sitting with Pastora Mary Ann and Tita (I forgot the name). After that I spent some quality time with Mama ♥ We seated for awhile.. We were talking about something I thought I would never ba able to open to her.. And while we were sharing and eating fruit salad words of wisdom and encouragement were treasured in my heart. She was telling me that she was really happy that I reached this kind of point in my life.. I kept myself silent, for me not to cry.. I wanted to thanked her that moment saying that if was not for her prayers I would never be here right now.. Truly a mother's prayer can do powerfull things in the lives of their childrens! :) After that heart to heart talk I went to the Youth Office and taught Chapter 6 at my G12 class. Afterwards I went home with Marie and decided to watch I do, but we were not able to find its link and we ended up in watching Hating Kapatid, when the door bell rung and he entered home. We then had a very cool dinner at Mcdonalds and a surpiring rainy night :)

Praise God, my Healer..

I recieved and INSTANT HEALING today! :)

God is simply amazing, just the way He is.. :)

My left foot hurts so bad! That's what happen when you are dressing all day long more or less 10cm of heels! 


I had a super dynamic and loud Saturday.. I went to Mcdonalds to have my so wanted breakfast.. Finally I had the chance again to eat my monterosa cheesecake and drink soft fruit hot tea! The best conbination ever!! :) I had some time for myself and to talk to God.. I was just sitting, eating and drinking without knowing that God wanted  to talk to me.. I opened randomly my Bible and He led me to Romans where there is the story of Abraham who didnt wavered in his faith but fought against all hopes believing that he was good at nothing but in God's promises alone.. - I begun to cry.. Why? I don't know. Mybe because I am going through a season in which God wants my full trust and letting me remind about Abraham conforted my heart.. And in my head i wanted to think.. "Now, Lord, if walk on waters is the revelation, lead me, as I open again my Bible to the passage in which Jesus walked on water.." I was not actully done thinking that, that when I turned my Bible randomly He led me there!!! I was so surprise.. He really knows what I think.. And tears were just unstoppable.. Haysss.. I have such an awsome God!! :)


Then I had my lunch @ Mundial and headed church - WOAH! What a great afternoon!! A very LOUD and DYNAMIC one! Had our first Youth-Tube.  And it went all good, Praise God!! And as a penance I was chose by the so lovely CYN Members to get some cream in my face.. Thank God that Melanie didnt hit me. lol
Afterwards I helped the Triune in their exam today. Pretty funny :) I was inspired by some CYN with their feelings while they dance, and this made me miss Elyon and Triune.


I then headed my home being seriously in trouble because of my foot.. But now I applied some cream and banded it..


Can't believe that is only 10:30. Got to sleep now and study for my G12 lesson tomorrow.

desire

Today it's a nice cold autumn morning... :)
Just woke up 50mins ago. And ATM I'm listening to "Walk on the water".


God revealed me this song through the life of Kring.. She posted it last week on her facebook, I was attracted bacause of the title. In my communion with the Lord I remember once that I prayed that kind of prayer... "Lord, I want to walk on water".. I was actually inspired by one of the exhortation I heard during our YMT meeting.. "Peter was the only one who dared to step up from his confort zone and was then and only then able to walk on waters.. In human history he is the only man who walked on water with Jesus.." Exhorted by those words I desired to walk on waters.. It's actually difficult.. He allowed me to go through hard moments.. And yet, He was there. So there.. :) That's one of the coolest thing about Him: indeed never He will leave you, never He will forsake you.. I'm leaving behind my fears, my insecurities to be able to move forward. To be able to see God's perfect plan in my life. I simply know that I am made for more, made for something good, not just good but for the best! Still I have lot of things to learn.. Learn how to walk, learn how to fix my eyes.. But I thank God for this desire He putted in my heart.. Because everything starts with a simple little desire.. :)


I now miss my Best Girl Friend.. :'( At this moment, if only she was still here.. She would sleep at my place to go to Sunrise today.. I miss her badly.. I miss talking and laughing like crazy with her.. I hope that she will call me, since she once mentioned that on weekends she has freecalls.. I need to talk to her. I need her super mega bear hugs.. Her opinion and I wanna simply hear her.. :( 

Now off to Mcdonalds to catch up my Monterosa Cheesecake with Soft fruit Hot Tea  ♥

peace

I now know what's that... Again He prooved Himself faithfull!!! :) I remember last week that I prayed for peace.. Inner peace.. And now.. Unconciously I found my heart being guarded by peace.. Not just peace, but The Peace! The Peace that surpasses understanding... The Peace that makes you compleate, that makes you satisfy for real..

something

There is something inside of me that I can't explain. It is a feeling of wonder in front of God's deeds in my life. I'm currently crying for no reason. But I'm just amazed by how God reveals thing. Reveals HIS secrets things. Things that on the moment revealed make no sense, make you ask "Lord, what's that?", but later on you will simply understand everything. Because He is simply amazing. Simply awsome and His ways are higher than my ways. 

There is that something inside my heart that is exploding... It could be joy? Love? Greatfulness? I don't know... The only thing I know that there is something... :) And I am thankfull to Him for this feeling. Because no one, no thing could ever be able to steal that!!!

I'm proud of my God and I love so much my Mom and Dad!!! (just random thoughts :p)

dreamworld

Good morniiiiiiiiiiiiing everybody :)


This is so weird. Indeed in dreamworld anything can happen! I just dreamt of myslef preaching in a B2 PowerHouse.. (LOL) and the silliest thing here is that i dreamt about even of my teaching!! This is.. WOAAAH! :O I dreamt of myself writing on the spot my preaching because the person supposed to preach was missing.. And in a split of a second I had to write something... I now don't much remember the teaching itself... But it is was about TRUST and FAITH..
Surely, if I'll be giving the chance to share something someday.. This will be the topic.


I personally thank God, that even in dreamworld He is able to teach me something and reveal secret things.. :) 
Later I will be heading Xier for a dynamic lunch and in the evening I am supposed to attend a meeting.

now taking a cold bath.

cough*

I'm actually waiting my Mom to finish her bath... I'll be the next then... I'm super bored... Rhan left yesterday but I'm not yet feeling that she's gone... I guess after a week, I surely will... But here is the good news: on December I will visit her in Scotland and we will tour around London... I'm also excited to see Sheryl and meet Ryah :) This is epic and I really can't wait to get there! I'm having now an heavy cough attack!!! (Somebody helps meeee..)

I want to walk on water...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=125Ppy25QIw

this song inspired me alot.. Indeed.. It takes my faith to walk on water too... :)

"Lord, I want to walk on water... Increase my faith..."

my collage math's Prof.

Today is Rhan's last day here in Milan. And later I'll be meeting her at church. Ohh. Again the hurt. Again the pain. For the second time. Still, I'm looking forward to see her on December. Surely I will miss her badly... :'(


Yesterday as her farewell party, I went to an eat-all-you-can Happy Hour with my two girl-friends, with the Hugs! :) We had so much fun: we were able to share our hearts and live fully moments that would only happen when I am with them! We had lot of laughs.. Specially when we started to take some pics of us with hot choccolate in our teeths! Precious moments with precious people that will be treasured forever! :)


Before heading the happy hour I went to my collage math prof's place... :)  Shared with her something and when I looked around her home I discerned that she was a believer. She is actually catholic. I really pray that one day I would be able to share my faith... It is always nice to meet people that was part of you life... That somehow made a big impact in your life - oh! I will never forget her lessons and that she used to take a cappuccino dolce before she would start. Though I was not that excellent in her subject, I found in her a very good person. An understading one. She just don't know how big the smile she putted in my heart when I saw her. I never looked on her that way before: maybe because I hated math. And I hated the grades that she was giving me on my test papers. But now, looking back. I realized that I learned alot from her. And that she's the best math's prof that I've ever had in my whole life.


When I was on the phone with her, explaning me how to get to her place, I found in her the same old person. While she was explaning I thought I was in one of her analitica's lesson. :) She gave me good instructions and praise God I was able to find her! And before our conversation ended she conforted me saying that if I would encounter problems, the one thing that I had to do was to call her so that she'd pick me.


And this remind me of God... :) On how He gives instructions.. How to get the palce meant for you and for you only... "If you want to be like this, you should first do that, go through that and leave that..." 


One of the greatest fear that I have is to be lost in a place. To be lost in a place with a low-bat cellphone. Duh. That was my condition yesterday. I didn't know the place plus I had my cellphone not working. Sometime we people are afraid to go to the place where God wants us to lead. We have lot of excuses. Lot of doubts and fears. 
But praise God He gave me wisdom. Before leaving home I googled her place and memorized which way I had to take. In our journey with God, it is always better for us to take some instruction from the Guide: the Bible.
All that I did was to follow her instruction and to keep on mind the google map's page in my mind. While we are running toward our goal we always have to follow God's lead. Knowing that wherever He leads, He provides. And we have to keep in mind His Words: Words of encouragements. 
And as I was walking I had my kinda low-bat cellphone in my hand and her number on the screen: I was so ready to call her in case of emergency. With God is the same. If we don't find anymore the right direction, when we are lost... He ever promised us.. "If you seek me with all your heart, you will find Me." - If we just "call" God and dial Jeremiah33:3, we then will find the way.

now off to church.

finally :)

Peace that surpasses all understanding is gurding my heart... :) <3

rain

On Wednesday I prayed to God... "Lord sana umulan"


Today.. God answerd me.. It's raining.. :)
Forever He is faithfull!!!


Just went from the church.. I had a super dynamic Sunday, all because God's Spirit - He is the only person that makes everything different. We celebrate the Family's day with the Lord and I was personally blessed. For the very fisrt time in my life i sitted near my parent and relatives.. Woah!!! We occupied 3 lines.. Didn't know that our clan would be that large.. And I'm still praying for those realtives that don't know yet the Love, the Life. No other than our Lord Jesus Christ.


* And you.. If you can't relate on what I'm saying.. One thing I want to say.. GOD LOVES YOU!

feisbuc

why do I can't enter my Feisbuc? :/

the bench

I sitted today almost 2 hours on that bench... Thinking about God's goodness and consequently submitting to His perfect Will... I needed that time... So precious. So intimate. Telling God with teary-eyes what I was really feeling. Not faking anything, not masking my heart but being me: weak, insecured.. I missed those times.. And all I can say is that He aswered my prayer... That simple, funny and silly prayer... "Lord disturb me when I'm too okei, when I feel so good.."

He is then faithfull and hears when I call on Him... I'm therefore not surprised of these things and with a gratefull attitude I'm facing this all... Knowing that He is in control. Now and forever more!

Psalm 71

Waaa! There's so much to blog... And I don't know where to start... Well, fisrt thing first, I changed my blog's name in memory of my English' prof. He used to say that during his lessons to explain Wordsworth... And I liked the meaning, that's why... "memories recollected in tranquillity" :)

ATM. Mixed feelings. Random thoughts. But still confident that God owns my life and He is pleased on what is happening, or else He would change something (isnt it, Lord? :D) I really like the way the Psalmist wrote Psalm 71, specifically verse 14 that is says "But as for me I will always have hope; I WILL PRAISE YOU MORE AND MORE" - Thats it! I needed that verse and sometimes I think that God made the Psalmist write that verse because He knew that one day, to be precised Oct. 22, someone named Monica would be needing that! That's my God! :) I'm now enjoying eating.. Eating my pride.. If Jesus' food was to do the Will of the Father... Mine is the same.. But in addition, as my dessert.. I eat my pride. And as I'm eating, I'm realizing that there's much to eat. I thank God that inspite of everything I'm still standing.. Without Him it will be so miserable and useless.. I thank Him for this sharpening time in which I'm learning. Learning things that if I would not learn today I wouldn't be able to go on and face life..

no never.

Time after time you’ve been left behind
Like the sun when it’s starting to rain
Time after time you’ve been forgotten
Like a picture that’s faded with age
Time after time you ran after me
When I was still running away

Chorus:
You never give up on me
No, You never give up on me
Though I’m weak you are strong
You told me I still belong
No, you never, never give up on me

Time after time I’ve used your grace
As a way to do what I please
I’ve taken for granted prayers that you answered
Never been all I could be
You are holding out your hands
And now I clearly see

Chorus

You always erase all my mistakes
You lift me up when I’m down
Through all the ages, Your love never changes
You welcome me just as I am

Chorus

Never give up, never give up on me…

Being Monica means: having a loving and forgiving God! <3

two seconds :)

I thank God for Mama!!! Maaaan. We had a very wild shopping week :) Buying stuffs without worrying about how much do they cost and picking things as I wanted!!! Woah!!! I thought it could happen just in Hollywood films.. Whew.

Lately I've spent time with him :) He is a real and good friend. Time flies when we're together. I thank God for his life because when I have stupid question I know to whom I can go without being judged, when I have something to share I know to whom I can tell them knowing that he would listen no matter how pointeless it is. And when I'm bored and want to stroll around Milan, I know whom I can txt because surely he is bored too. And I prefer to be bored with him than alone. But it never happens because when I'm with him everything changes! :) On friday we had our long autumn walk!!! I toured him around Milan's center. From Duomo to Lanza, from Cairoli Castello to Duomo again! I showed him where we could celebrate JIL annivs, we went inside the castle and walked along parks. It took us almost one hour but it seemed just 30 minutes as we were talking, sharing, laughing and having our cold coffe (before it was hot :p).

Youth Rages are awsome!!! :) We re-shuffled the SmallGroups and sad to say I will really miss my FireProofs :( We really built the friendship and we were taking indeed good care of each other! But I take pride knowing that 2 of our member are now leading respective groups!!! :) Praise God that we were able to raise responsible leaders! And now, I have new memebers. and today as I was talking and getting to know them I already saw in them what they could be. Specially for my one memeber, she is just 14 y.o. but I see her potential!!! I love her spontaneous character. I'm looking forward for the things that God will gonna do within our SmallGroup, He will surely make us grow together.
And as we were celebrating the victory and while I was singing at the top of my voice "...that saved me and rescued me, just a moment there You set me free." God spoke to me. I'm sure He was the One who was speaking. The unmistakable voice of God was heard again saying, "The most important 2 seconds in this world was when Jesus, hangging on the cross, were assuring humanity "It is finished." - And from that moment on I sang that line by heart indeed. Now I understand. In just 2 seconds He gave me life, in just 2 seconds He choose me, in just 2 seconds He forgave me, in just 2 seconds He redeemed me, in just 2 seconds He cutted any curse.. It took Him just a moment: 2 seconds.

And forever I will be always thankfull to Him for those 2 seconds.

Being Monica means: loving autumn walks <3

full to the fullness!

Just got home from Cabalen Ini Resto. I had lunch with him and again our tummies are so full, that we could harldy breathe. I enjoy to be with him, talking about everything. Sharing our random thougths and our different opinions about dogs, ministry and english grammar.

Being Monica means: loving to be with him.

i'm not perfect

It's been a while since last time! And many things just happened, but for God's glory everything is fine, though maybe things will change but good to know that His Love always pravail. I thank God for surrounding me with people with huge hearts and deep understanding.

On friday night I and Rhan went to the cinema to watch "Eat, pray, love". It was too long!!! Duh. But I enjoyed it... Was about a woman who wanted to move on and do things that she always loved: all around the world tour, eat a lot, have a relationship with God and love. To find her true love. But before that we went to Zara to try some dresses! Man! We didn't noticed the time and we literally ran to the cinema because in 10mins the movie would be starting.. After the movie we went at BK and order burgers.. :) We went home and she slept at my place as she always do on friday nights...

Saturday.
I woke up with "NEEEEC, 7:20 NA" lol. I jumped and took a fast shower! The afternoon I met him at his school :) I met him because he would leave for Bologna. He was invited to speak on their YS as well as PH! And hard to admit, I missed him! I was really in need of his shoulder that point of time..
I atteneded the super dynamic YR and eneded my day with an uplifting phonecall from Bologna.

Sunday.
LATE! I was late for the WS! Duh. I had a great day. Teached at the G12. Went home. And heahed church again for Pilot Team's graduation on its G12 seminars! Praise God that after three long years we are done with this course! :) I eneded my day sharing my heart with him while he was going home from Bologna to Milano.

Moday.
Had a WILD SHOPPING DAY with Mother :) I really enjoyed it. Spending quality time with people who loves me undconditionally. As we went home, I watched the reply of Bologna's PH and I was litteraly speechless!! Indeed he is called to do great exploits for God's glory! Seeing him ministiring at ease with the guidance of the HS and preaching with that kind of boldness, makes me proud about him. And while I was watching God took me back in time.. I smiled at the many troubles and problems we undergone. It was all worth it!!! And He spoke: "Treasure his purity!" I was shocked when I heard such thing. But I just found myself commiting to treasure his purity! Heart's purity. After all is what I desire the most for him...

Being Monica means: not being perfect.