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SINGAPORE :)

Molino Dorino

Today is my last day here in Milan. And today I took my Passport again. Hays! Praise God though. Indeed He looks on His children with favor! :D


After that I went to Cadorna to meet my Bestfriend. Huh. I wanted to give him my best regards personally so I took him to Molino Dorino where he would have met Tabita for their practices. 


But before the story goes, I want to acknowledge God. For giving us this opportunity to meet, despite our super busy schedules!


As usual, the talkative Monica went silent mode in his presence. The first minutes I just kept silent. But I couldn't help but to cry and lean my head upon his chest.. And.. 


.................. And the rest is history :')
Surely treasured! 

Christmas is cancelled | the concert in 3D

Gloria in excelsis Deo!!!!
Our Christmas concert was a blast!!! I wanna thank the Almighty for the lives of my coo-PAs, specially Rachel and Clarisse. I worked with extraordinary people. People that has the passion to serve God and our generation!!! I get inspired by them! The way they were so prepared, the way they were so eager for the smoothness of the concert! AHHHH! Awsome!!


They really own that so called heart of a servant. Therfore, I see great Leaders in them! Indeed  you  must serve before you lead! :)


May our Lord bless these rising Leaders! 


But. Here is the but! :P
Before the blast of the night, I went through a storm. Praise God for the life of my Bestfriend, that though lately we are busy with our own lives, he prooves himself always ready to help and sustain me no matter what. 
Forever I am thankfull to God for his life, he may not know how much I am cos sometimes I am giving him the worst side of me, but despite that, he is there. A phone-call away. A txt away. A prayer away! 


I took him to Brico to buy the last things for the concert since it was near home. He knew what I needed indeed! After weeks we had not talk much, he was there, waiting me at the cashier.. Wearing his best and sweetest smile.. :) It gave me hope. It gave me strength and most of all I felt protected. (I never imagined that a smile could produce such effect!)


I want to thank God for my Bestfriend's prayer. Indeed God heard him. :)

i'll be missing you...

see you next year. sadness.

Oh no.

passport. what an epic fail.

Thank you soooooooo much.

my bestfriend is the best besfriend ever lived on earth.

Intercession

Last week with some of the CYN girls I was talking about people that decides to put an end to their lives by jumping at the metro.


Tonight as we were going home we saw someone at the top of a tower in Bisceglie metro. Among them I was the only one who really wanted to see it closer. I wanted to go to that side and live it in first person the happening. They followed me as I was running.. Running and interceeding for that person. 


I feel sorry for being not able to do anything practically. All I could do that moment was to interceed and pray for him. It was sadly late so we had to go and took our train though I really wanted to stay.


As I was walking from BandeNere to Home, my heart couldn't stop but to pray for him. I believe that my God is far greater than any negative thoughts that the enemy was injecting him. I believe that my small prayer and faith were able to move the Hands of the Almighty and touch his heart.


I love interceeding for the needy :) 
Thank You for this call, Lord.. 

a big question mark

"What does maturity mean, Lord?" :)


December. Christmas Season for the whole world. For Monica's world is MATURING season.
It scares me a bit. I don't really know what does it mean. I don't even know how could I get into it.
Is it a finish line or a life-long process? Is it that you mature today, and forever you will be matured? Or is it a state of the heart, mind, soul, how you look on things and so on?


I don't know. But as someone always says.. I don't need to know everything.
I just realized lately that unless not you will act as a matured person you will never be like one.


I consider myself as an immatured person. That's why God is calling me to be so. And He is definitly correct! I'm amost 20! :O As I'm under this maturing process He is asking me to leave things in His hands. *Ohhh, I love to picture that scenario.. God taking care of my things :')* Anyways as I was writing.. He is letting me totally to be focused. I am amaze by His works in my life.. How He patientlly change me form glory to glory til I don't get His very likeness. How He is making beautiful everything in its time! And how He is sustaning me with His power.

My God is great. ;) And and we match alot. His power is made perfect in my weaknesses. :)

toward maturity

I thank GOD for every single day :) Though I really want that things were different, yet I am apreciating everything. I apreciate His love in the morning, His grace that keeps me going and His provision that makes me lack nothing! I enjoy the gift of singleness, I do. And I enjoy praying for the right person in my life. Actually I am not anymore concerned about this. All I believe is that God has the BEST for me. And I know, as I follow His lead in this walk on waters I will be able to reach that place. No worries. No doubts. No fears. I am full of confidence in Him. I trust and my hope is found in Him. Because "Fear has nothing to do with Love." - I.M. :)


I'm now 19. Turning 20 next year. I should start to think about what would I be within 5 years from now. It's time to stand on my feet. To think about how would be my life without parents. It's time to think to feed my stomach with what I would be earning with my own work. It's time to think to save money for my future family. To get a license. To get my home. But before this all.. To absolutely go for an all-around-world tour!  :P
It's time to be serious now. It's time to set the priorities of life again. And be hypotized by them! :)


This all happens because.. When you pause for a while.. Reflect and think.. You will suddenly realize that few things really matter in life.. And those little and few things are really worth living.. :)

Updating my blog through Lady Xperia :)

it's seriously hard.

after 4 months

holding my PASSPORT in my hands.

finally :)

my pride

The fact that I am surrounded with cool and irreplaceable people makes me hyper!

They are my pride. Specially when they excell. :)

My bestfriend is really good. I don't really know how he is able to shoulder me. Believe me, when I become stressfull, I'm unreachable! He is indeed gifted with a big and kind heart. With a deep understanding and a wide patience. And what I love the most about him is his sensitivity to the Will of God. And how he stands on God's call. 

He inspires. His life and his way of living encourage not just me, but hundreds of people of every ages. His passion is like contagious :)

I'm glad of what God is doing in his life.. :) He is blooming!!! (Maybe he is using Likas Papaya, or Nivea Cream.. Hmm?!) LOL :O 
And I guess, inlove. He is crazy inlove with God!!! :D And I take pride on this.. :) 

He is actually my pride.. 

You are my delight

What God is doing now in my life is priceless!!!


Nothing can ever compare with His marvellous deeds. Nor the so good-feeling care of him. Nor his sweet words. :) God's Love is more than enough. (But please don't get me wrong.. :P I enjoy the feeling anyways). It is just like I am compleate with His Love. I am now learning to find my Joy in Him alone, not depending on what I see. Cos what I see is just temporary, while His things are eternal :)


I chose to trust Him. This walk on water of mine is actually a journey of trust.. I'm leaving my fears behind as I take each day a step of faith.. I am so thrilled.. I am so excited and I am enjoying everything. Even storms. :)

I assure you that what God is asking me to do is not a merly joke. He is asking a big piece of me: my trust, to give up on my desires and wants, not to worry, not to look on situation and so on. It costs me alot. The price is particularly high! But with a submissive, sometimes complaning heart (I'm just a human being after all) I submitt to His plan. 

My will bows before His.

He is the strength inside of me. His Love is the fuel, His powerful Grace is my shield and His thoughts are my goal :) 

"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart."

- Proverbs 37:4

He is my delight! I delight in His way.. So true what my G12 book says about doing the will of God.. Once you get to do His will, God will incline your heart toward it and unknowingly you will soon start to like it, till it comes a lifestyle.

This song is my song.. :) With Magnificent they do a great tandem. It sings about Jesus' beauty, awsomeness..

It minister me alot. Every time I think about His very nature it humbles me on my knees, makes me forget about my problems, trials and struggles I am going through.

My hope is then lifted, my fears are wiped away and replaced with unspeakable Joy and my soul is restored as I am totally lost in His perfect Love!!!

My God is great and there is no doubt about it.. He is beautiful beyond desciprtion.. :)

sa'yo.

and OHH! How can I forget to thank my Bestfriend..

SALAMAT sa..

paguunawa, pagtyatyaga, pagtititis, pagkikinig, pagalalaha, pagpapanalangin, pagibig, pagtitiwala, pagtulong, pagtawag, pagging matatag para sa akin, pagnanais ng akin kabutihan...

buong puso.. SALAMAT.

2nd chapter - EYES.

His goodness makes me wanna shout Halleluja!!! His mercy makes me wanna shout PRAISE the LORD!!!
I can't contain His goodness! His love!!! His perfect way and plan in my life!!! He is soooo AWSOME! Though I'm not even a bit worthy of all this.. Still, His love covers up everything! Still, His mercy is running like a river in my life!! When I say that God is alive, believe me, HE IS DEFO! He is not simply alive, He DOES miracles!!! I owe Him everything. I owe Him my life.. I owe Him my heart.. 
This is it.. I'm taking my SECOND STEP in this walk of mine. My walk on waters with Him :) This would be the second chapert of my wanna be book huh? :D 


This time He is asking my heart.. :) my eyes actually! He wants me to be focused totally on Him alone. He just removed everything that would cause my fall. And He is awsome. I thought allowing Him to remove those things was unfair for me. I didn't as usual understand anything! Slow Monica! But His loving patience made me understand. I see the big picture now.. :) I see the rainbow after the stormy day! I see the sunrise after a dark night!!! 


His mercy is calling me to give my eyes to Him.. And I can't refuse. I can't resist Him.
These eyes are His.


I may be misfocused ten, hundred, million, billion, trillion times. But surely He will find the way for me to get to the right. Surely He will make everything to catch my eyes' attention, again. And all over again!!!


It is my prayer that He may find me always on my knees as I take my journey with Him. LORD, I CAN'T KEEP MY EYES OFF YOU!!!

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

Heb 12:2

I'M SO LOVING MY WALK ON WATERS!!! :)

GOD is so GOOD!!!

*teary eyes*

my first manna: a mama - L.M. ♥

Yestarday I had a heart to heart talk to with one of the most wondefrul inside and out person that I know. She is a very strong and prayerfull woman, an inspiring servant of God that I admire and salute alot! :)


She is my Bestfriend's Mother. She is one of my mannas. A blessing indeed!
I never wanted to talked to her.*Maaaan, what would I say?* It is actually my bestfriend who suggested me to talk to her. And so I did. 


It was after she preached in Bisceglie II. I knocked the door, got in and hugged her. A tear fell as I was embracing her. She made me sit and she smiled at me. 
She spoke words of wisdom over me.. We had a very sweet, simple yet sincere talk.. She is great and so understanding. I really saw her care, heart and concern in it!!
I was at ease as we were talking and honestly a bit surprised when she started to tell kinda personal things.
I was really challenged by her.. Inspired to PRAY, PRAY and PRAY. 
All times. Costantly. Without ceasing. :)
*Oooh, I can't number how many times she used that word in our convo :)*
We talked about everything actually.. From the reason why I came to her, to Kuya Eis and my trip to Pinas. She's the ideal person to talk with! And she made my day :D


Everything is treasured. All keeped in my heart. Her advices, her smiles..

"I may not be a sweet or showy Mom like others, cos my children are boys, but I am always here. Don't be afraid to aproach me." - L.M. 

♥♥♥

my honor is to obey You

If I have to describe my last week I would use the phrase: GOD IS IN CONTROL! :)


Yes! He is. I really can't doubt about this.. He is simply all-knowing, that even the numbers of our hairs are counted! :D Amazing God I have!
It's growing time for me and my Bestfriend. It's rather, MATURING time. I thought that I was matured enough to handle things, that I had enough strength to get things alright. But as King Solomon says in Proverbs 3:5-6,

"Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowlegde Him, and He will direct your path."

And I am currently trusting the Lord with all my heart. Leaning not on my own understading and submitting to Him, in order for God to trully move. I want to see His perfect ways! I want to see Him having His way in me. I want to see how He moves and directs!

I may not understand what He is doing. I may not understand perfectly His Will. I may not like what He wants me to do, still.. Obeying Him is one of the highest priviledge that I have.. And as time goes on.. I have to admit that I'm liking it! Though sometimes it means that I have to deny myself and give up my hopes and dreams, still there's no such joy in following His lead. Cos, trully. Where He leads, He provides! I am experiencing actually Manna from heaven.. Yes! He is providing the strength. He is providing the joy. He is providing people that will encourage me!!! AAAAAHH!! I can't ask for more!!!

Surely as Ptr. Erwel said.. "Walang kalugihan sumunod sa Dyos!

I WANT TO WRITE A BOOK :)

apology

It's been a while that I'm not posting in here. All bacause my PC was not protected enough. I had to renew my Norton contract by installing a new program. I wasn't able to do that during last week cos I was too lazy. I and high-tech things are not that friends. Duh.


I just finished to install Norton and now is going alright! :) And do you know what does that means?
BLOG BLOG BLOG BLOG!!! :D finally.

i miss Neng

:(

soon, very soon
 ♥♥♥

Christmas gift

Mom is defo inlove with The Guy. More than I do, people!!! :O 

She just got from a shopping evening and guess what? She has already bought him their Christmas' gift!!! *.* I automatiacally said "Ma, para sa akin?". She just look at the BK bag. A Whopper Burger was all she had bought for me. How sweet! Nyay. And maaaan! They have seen each other! Lol. The Guy saw randomly my Mom, he was with his family. How I wish I was there! :( Hehe.

Everyday that passes by I am reminded by God how His plans for me are beautiful and perfect. I am leaving everything in His hands. My family, my career, my ministry and him. Letting Him to take full control is the best thing that I can do for myself. Still I can't grasp and understand His ways in my life. They are so perfect. Evrything was already palnned! 

It's amazing how He made our circumtances so matching by allowing us to pray silly prayers, by putting us in different but complementary situations! 

"Every time you wait is a perfect chance to pray."

 ♥ ♥ ♥

prayers plus pieces of papers

Can't really believe that I am surrounded with such great people!!! :)


My Bestfriend arrived around 3pm, we ate Pizza and watched cartoons. We've been together just for one hour because had to pick his fratellino at school. He is so thoughtfull. I can't imagine that he would do Cimiano-Bande Nere (which is almost one hour of subway) just to see me. He then left at 4pm. Woah! Time flied so fast.


This is a very unknown situation. I myself I can't define it. If I have to describe this with one word I would choose "Prayer". Yes! Prayer is the word that define the most this thing.. :)
It is a relationship based on Prayers. Prayers and Prayers all over again. Just Prayers.
We chose not to say anything. No talks about our feelings and our disapointments. But to say them all to God through PRAYERS.
He said that if ever he had something to tell me he would write it down and, if one day God will allow our path to cross again, he would give me those pieces of papers :)


I was on the phone with him 15mins ago. I just opened my heart and it's amazing how God uses his life to lighten my burdens. He defenitly knows how to make me feel better: he will just stick on the key of "G" with his piano and sing "Magnificent" (my favourite song) and I then am being ministered right away!


I AM BLESSED to have such great person at my side. I'm impressed by the things he is doing for me. Showing and being strong just for me not to give up in this... Ahhh!! Words can never express what I am feeling!!! Surely he is the extention of the LOVE of the ALMIGHTY! :)

Mr. Mumps' visit

Officialy sick! This morning I woke up with a great, big, major major hurt at my lower chew again. The sad thing is that the pain is spreading like wildfire. Toinks! Kidding aside.. I got my left ear kinda bigger than the rightly one. Mumps is its name :( my friend Google says that it's a childhood sickness (ehrm?) and a while ago I confronted the symptoms with what I was feeling. WELL, I'm on the right track -.- I got them all!!! 
It's been ages that I haven't had anything. Last time I got sick I was 13 years old. *.*


I'm exagerately blessed: Mama is really great, she is caring for me alot.. And I love her more and more!!! My bestfriend, knowing my current status, will gonna visit me this afternoon after his school.. And I... (haaaayssssss..) :p

My Doctor Mama said to cover my ears. And since I canno't see my MickeyMouse Earmuff.. See what I did..

Don't laugh :p

I need healing. My lower left chew hurt so bad. 

Prayer please.. :S

They are all that I have

  ♥♥♥

juaneza's language

I ♥ Mom

People should envy me for having such great Mom! :) She is simply awsome. She is my partner in crime! You can really count on her in times of needs. She is always ready to listen and to do any thing just to see me happy! I love the way she's treating The Guy. I salute her for showing herself available and, specially, for us! She's great!!! :)

MAHALARSI KITARSI MAMARSI.

(our secret launguage spoken only by the Juaneza's) :p

The Guy is simply awsome!

♥♥♥

Over blessed to have him. His unending patience. His costant care. His kind heart. And how about his efforts? :) They're so touching. I've never knew someone like him. He is the one I really want to spend my lifetime with..

Currently seeking God's approval. 

In His perfect time.

my shoulder hurts so bad

:(

Ahuh.. ;)

One month ago God was asking me something I thougth I wouldn't be able to do. Something that I myself was not totally sure of what I was about to do. Untill His very Words came true..

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strenght." 

God enabled me to do things that Monica would never do. But with Him all things are possible. 
I was confuse, doubting and afraid that time. I didn't understand any single thing and command! But I stick on doing His Will.


Again His Words are true. Again He prooved Himself worthy of my Praises!!!

Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”

- John 13:7

I didn't understand anything one month ago. But now, as He promised, I'm starting to see the big plan, the perfect picture.
I learnt to do things as He simply commands because He really owns my life and knows the best. I wonder if I didn't take the challange and choose to sit on the boat. WHAT A MESS!
Now that I am out. I atleast know why He wanted me to go out. He ever wanted me to lead toward him, IN HIS PERFECT WAY! :)


THE GOD I SERVE AND TRUST IS SWEET! :)

a journey toward you ♥

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe this! :) Something just flashed in my mind..

There is this guy, I should say The Guy, with whom I actually see my future, that is promising me to wait in an unknown place for me..

And 5 seconds ago, I've been reminded by God that I'm walking.. Walking on waters..

From the moment I knew that he is waiting me in a place, I then kept saying that I am actually going/heading/running.. WALKING toward him..

Isnt it that walking on water is the only way to reach him? :) 

I will keep then walking. 'Cos I'm sure that He is there to lead me wherever He pleases and to guide me to the right place. 

I'm trusting Him with this journey. A journey of trust, wait, patience and love.

The God I serve and I trust is simply awsome. His ways are higher than mine. His plan and thought I can't grasp! He is simply amazing! 

I love the way He made walk; as I read my past blogs about "the call of walking on waters" which I didn't understand why He desired it for me, my greatfull heart can't just stop smiling. 

I'm so thankfull to the Lord, He made learn how to depend not on situation or circumsatnces, but to look straight to Him alone. I bare this joy in my heart. An uncontainable one. I am inspired and motivated enough to do His very will. 

I didnt wrong when I said that God writes the most romantic loves stories.. :) I'm excited!

He is the best Author ever!!!

"Oh Lord, as I follow Your steps, guard my heart and lead me to the place where he is waiting me." 

 ♥ ♥ ♥

jump and walk

I knew this boy, now a grown man, wayback 2007. He actually arrived here year 2006, but because of my ever snob character I've never tried and dared to talk to him.

2007 came. Kuya Aldrin preached and ordered us to make a big heart to be attached at the back in which every CYNs would have write a negative and a postitive thing about that person. I was surprised that he wrote at my back!!! :O 

"Minsan lng namamansin." were his words for me.

I didn't know how to react. But as we were all heading home I just said him on 78 bus  "Minsan lang ba ako namamansin? HIndi naman ehh."

I started a non sense convo without knowing that it was the very beggining of our friendship... :)

I wrote the start though I still don't know the end... We were 15, now we are 19... I don't know what God reserved. I just leave in His hands the pen, and let Him write write and write. 

I just bow before Him, I am subject of what pleases Him and I reverently wait in patience.

I really wish to know the end. I want to know now everything but walking on waters would not have sense any  more.

It's hard. It's difficult. But I believe God. I believe that He answers prayers. After all.. He is the same yesterday, today and forver! :)

He is waiting, I am waiting. He is jumping from the highest of heights, I am walking on the deepest water.

Israel Masangcay is his name.

I PROMISE NOT TO EAT ANY KIND OF SWEET! :)

:)  ♥ 

the most dynamic CYN

Youth Tube was in its simple program an amazing segment! :) Praise His name in the highest for what He did individually and corporately in the live of the most dynamic CYN in the whole earth!!! I'm clearly talking about my very own CYN MILAN :)


I thought that the Small Group portion was for my girls to open up their burderns, their deepest things and etc. But unknowinglly God prepared it all for me! :) YES! It was made for me. For the very first time I've been able to tell who really I am, to show them what I am and what I did. The very thorne in my heart has been released! :)  I don't fear anymore what other people may think about me, what matter the most is what my God is saying to me, what He is really thinking about me! :)

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

- 2 Cor 12:9

Things are doing great. With joy I serve God like I've never did. I'm doing things that the old Monica would never do and it's all because of Him! I love God! I love people around me! I love them all!!! I DEFO LOVE MY CYN FAMILY :) hayysss. 
God's love can't be kept indeed! 


It is my prayer that He may find me always on my knees as I serve Him with all my heart, with all my strength and with all my soul! 

one hour

Yesterday was indeed a great day! 
My morning was really sweet. My Xperia reminded me a very cool verse.. 

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

He is great, isn't it? :) Again He reminded me to fix always my eyes unto Him as I walk on waters."

Hebrews 12:1-2

Well, I have to admit that everyday with the Lord is awsome!! :) 
I supposed to lunch at my Bestfriend's place after his school.. Whhhaaaat? :p Yes. :) But praise God! He really spoke. He really loves us both. I didn't know how to react actually. But I was reminded by God what true love is. PUTTING OTHER'S NEEDS FIRST AND AHEAD YOUR OWN DESIRES. Again he is prooving himself selfless and that he really cares. What he just did is a proof of true care. :)
I'm impressed on how God is working  in his life! And I'm very glad for that. How he is taming his own desire, how he disciplines himslef and being very gracious to others! Ahhhhh! What he just did is sweeter than anything he could do if I lunched at his place!
The evening I went to church to fix some important things for today's Youth Tube! Maaan! My coo-team are indeed crazy! I litteraly rolled on the floor as I was laughing! :D
My Bestfriend took me home. We walked again. It took us one hour of walk while usually it's just 20 minutes. I enjoyed. And the rest is history :)


* Happy? YES! Afraid? SUPER! 
But as long as I know that eveyday I'm walking in waters with God, I have nothing to mind about! :) I am learning to depend on God and not in situations. Circumstances will not affect me anymore. And He will surely turn any mess into my favor!
I'm ufficialy heading the so called unknow but there's Joy in my heart, simply because I believe this is God's will. I am delighting in His way and I rejoice in His comandments! :) I canno't explain and I can rend the thought of what I am experiencing now! This is priceless. And though sometimes I fall, I'm being misfocused, my God, the Master of the seas and storms, is always ready to pick me up. 


To  my God, who is constantly faithfull in my life, to Him be the Glory. Always.

silence speaks louder than words

I had a very blessed day. It's true that God saves the best at last. I thought that I already had my best by sitting at Mcdo, having my soft tea and my cheesecake monterosa and specially by talking with 5 "Titos". 
And the story goes like this. I was alone, very busy in doing my stuffs when Tito asked me "Are you a filipina?" I smiled to say yes then lowerd my eyes to my notebook again. Tito#2 followed him saying "Are you born again?", I replied proudly "Yes". We had a 30mins of sharing time. I was talking as one of their daugthers and I believe as I was speaking the Holy Spirit did something in them. This convo I had with them is one of the most beautiful I ever had! :) And they are great too! They were those who actually encouraged me to fulfill my dreams!!! :D


I left them to head church. I was blessed by Abigail's life who led us all in Worship! I did not mistake. I saw rightly. She is called with a very special calling!!! :)


We weren't able to attend the Service since YMT had meeting but it turned in a heart to heart talk with Eyey :) I'm very blessed through her life. She is such strong. And I pray for more strength in her life as well to her entaire family. 


The service ended, so our meeting too, my Bestfriend approached me saying "This is from Mama.", as he was giving me something. All I said was "Ooooh..", smiled and ran to catch Tita to thank her for being so thoughtfull! She is great. A very sweet strong woman! 


And here comes the super duper cool thing of my night! I wanted to walk. And surprisingly my Bestfriend asked me to walk to home. I agreed and we walked. Yes. All we did was to walk. Walk under his black and my white umbrella. The rain was falling very sweetly. No words. Just his deep breathes, the rumor of cars once in a while and the music produced by the rain as it reached down on the floor. I needed that walk. And while we were walking I just couldn't stop myself but to pray. I prayed silently for him in general. And I thank God for that precious moment that I could pray for him in his presence though what I did was compleatly hidden from him. *Hehe* He took then his way to the subway and me, I took my way to home sweet home :) And there I found my two treasured possession and had a very delicious Menudo cooked by Mama.

the unknown

I'm officially walking on waters, finally. I took me 2 weeks of preparation. To understand fully what I was going to do. I tried to escape and run away from this call. I can't help but to give in God's perfect plan in my life. I played safe for all this time. I was anchored in my confort zone and missing actually what God really prepared for me. I thank God for the life of my Bestfriend, though he himself needs to be encouraged, he stays strong for me. 
I'm going through a season that will surely enable me to be a better person. The Monica that God ever wanted! :) Though painfull, though very hard, though very difficult.. I lay down my hopes, dreams and plans in His hands, knowing that if I commit everything to Him, He will make them all succelfull. I am content of where I am now. And I am currently enjoying my walk with God.. A special walk.. My walk on water with Him! :)


Everyday I'm taking a step toward the unknown, I fear? YES! But everyday that passes by I'm getting closer to the finish line for which I've always, I am and I will run.. :)

Mr. Evan

ATM: watching Evan Almighty.


How I love that film! It insipres a lot.. 

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?" 

- taken from the film Evan Almighty

the art of being content

Thank God for her life!!! :) She is such a big help to me and my family! "Lord, bless her the more."


I have to admit that I am kinda slow. Hehe! Slow in understanding things and accept them consequently. But praise God, He never gives up on me and He constantly makes me understand til I don't get it. I am now learning like Paul to appreciate what I have and where I am.

"..for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength."

Philippians 4:11b-13

jellybeans

I changed layout cos someone told me to actually change it! Not directly but the meaning was that! 
This is for you then, :P


PS: I miss you! :(

Simon Peter: "Lord, if it's You, tell me to come to You on the water."

Jesus: "Come."